Hey bro,
I've been in almost exactly the same situation some time ago. And I don't need to tell you that this is really bad for your health, you know that already right?
This girl is just playing you. She might not even be fully aware of it. She uses you as some sort of rebound. Whenever she feels down, she has you to tell her you love her and you want her, and all she has to do is to tell you she loves you for you to come running to her. When she feels acknowledged again, she doesnt need you anymore.
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but seems i just turned into a wussy....
Yes, yes you have. It's time to man the fuck up now. Do you need this in your life? Do you need to be played like this? Get fucked over, over and over again? I've had a girl like this in my life for 3 years. 3 fucking years I've wasted on her. I thought she was the one. Whatever girl I met, they didn't measure up to her. But after being messed around with for too long, I said: "Fuck you, I don't need this shit anymore, you used me for the last time, goodbye." And I blocked her on every communication-medium possible. I played the field for a while, found girls way better than her and then I found my current girlfriend and let me tell you, I really, really regret wasting all that time on my one-itis.
Please man, don't waste any more time on her, and move the fuck on. In time you will find out she's nothing special, and there are better girls than her, girls that won't use you like she did.
I wish you the best of luck.
Chillburg