Broke up with her after four years, we saw each-other for about 2 months over that time. She said she kissed a guy, the second time she told me she did this. She text this to me. I have deleted all traces of her from my life.

Now to focus on me. I plan to write a book called, "How to be a great lover with a broken penis and other health problems". I don't care what's already out there, this is a project that is going to change my life. If anyone wants to know, my age is 23 and I won't go into my health problems again unless someone asks.

I want to know have any of you PUA's suffered any long lasting or permanent difficulties as regards your health that effected your sexual game? If so, how did you deal with them?

Also, as a general question, now what?

How do I best recover emotionally? I know there are some great threads on here about that, feeling pretty shitty right now.

I got out of my relationship only about a month ago. It lasted around 1.5 years. Look into my previous posts...I was where you were. You will be fine.

to answer your question:
I have certain "blemishes" down there...no not herpes. It's purely cosmetic (I have it checked out more than once to make sure). Girls ask me what they are and I honestly tell them what they are. Never hear a peep after that.

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I chose to be with her because we had a lot of compatibility, she had a lot of person and childhood problems, was quiet, never very close to anyone, intelligent always putting on a face. I communicated with her in some form literally every day. She is far and away the best friend I have ever had and already I miss her. I feel ready to cry like a child. I now things about her she has told no one, I know troubles about her she has told no, because we saw things the same, we had the same education and the same ambitions. We read the same books and both wanted to escape. All my long terms plans were with her by my side and fuck me but she was a good person. She cheated on me twice with a kiss and told me both time, just a kiss. That's a good girl.

Anything else about game, or about fucking is just that. Fucking. Meaningless sex. A great love is something awesome, when you know you can connect with billions of girls, you know this, but you choose to be with her. And she was beautiful, stunning, in every sense, not just physicality, 10/10. Everything else is classless and cheap in comparison to a great love.

Dudes I'm fucked up. She got me before I was fucked up. I've lost my best friend and my lover, long distance or not, all my emotion was invested in her. I've went from a guy typified by being in love, to a guy typified by being sick and abandoned.

Let it all out. It's okay to be mushy and shit. Now you have a choice to feel sorry for yourself for the next few months or you can prepare yourself to make some moves. It's going to hurt for awhile but time heals all. Just make sure you don't sit around moping, it's a disservice to yourself

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Thanks man.

This is a serious question. If I eat well, exercise, focus on my goals, work hard, play hard and socialize, keeping everything real and respecting myself, not lying to myself and pretending I don't give a shit, how long will it take to recover, at maximum? Three months?

Depends on the individual...it took me a good month to be at a decent/good state. Everyone heals at different speeds. Don't sweat it. Just do all that. You'll see a change soon.

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It has occurred to me that what I am missing is her, but at the same time it's what she offers me; companionship, intelligence, self respect, similar values and morals, an ability not to be offended and to understand sexuality, a curiosity for new experiences and knowledge. Beauty, and desirability. If I know I can get a women with this, if my game is still strong enough, then I can be better. It's believing that, that level of game is still obtainable to me in my current physical condition.