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She said she doesn't know what to say and I freaked out and I LJBF myself . I told her nvm let's not ruin our friendship . . .
. . . While we where talking she told me that some people think that we where together and how weird is that? I coped with it , didn't say anything

Excerpt one: Bud you totally blew it. If she was all on you like you described. (sitting in your lap??!!) and I think there was some hand-holding going on, and you didn't act, forget it. Strike while thr iron is hot? Bud, that iron is dead cold by now.
You see with girls, they have only about one good week a month where they're really feeling it to go out and mingle provocatively with guys (maybe more) and guess what?
They have unlimited guys that they can use as an "outlet" for these desires.
They can put themselves out there for a guy they like, or for the more aggressive ones, make advances on those guys (which I personally love).
And if they're getting no receptiveness....you guessed it! They move right along their merry way, and find a guy who WILL take thr hint.
I don't know you, but from your OP, you honestly sounded boring, scared shitless, and a push-over, no offense. Did you EVER try to advance or escalate at all??!
You mentioned a club and you guys had been drinking, while OUT TOGETHER??!! Man, that's a recipe for at least a good long makeout on the way home for me. And no, drinking doesn't give you bad kissing breath, especially if she's been drinking. And if you've been smoking, she's just not going to care if she's been drinking.
Sounds to me that you bunted the ball at least twice by now. Grow some balls man, speaking of which, most guys would give their left one for the kind of female interest you got.
Now that leads me to the second excerpt. She was having second thoughts about LJBF, now this was a straight-up shit test that you didn't pass.
Sorry to sound harsh but when ppl come to this forum already w ton of interest from (nonetheless HOT) females, we kinda wanna shake them and say DUDE, SHE'S INTO YOU!! STEP UP AND MAKE IT HAPPEN!
Now the 30 year old virgins we get tend to be the more sympathetic cases , where they're not walking in w/ interested females. They have decades of issues (eg, shitty upbringing, etc) that are legitimately standing in the way of their best efforts.
With your case, if I wasn't blunt, I'd really feel I was doing you a disservice man.
Either way, there may be some semblance of a chance to salvage this. If so, examine, and DO IT!! Damn the consequences! You've already seen the worst that could come of it. I recommend RSD Blueprint Decoded for situations like yours, and man others.