I suddenly feel filthy, disgusted and sick to death, ripped off my very dignity, by 'bonding' with a girl who sucked dick to one guy and gave her virginity to another (now me doing oral to her), in time-span of one night, maybe about 4 months before we started dating, so much that I would like to cut my bloody lips off. Its pathological but I can't help it. The facts that saliva restores, and there are no physical traces left (except in case of stretching vagina, so even if monkey or dog took her virginity - he would be more valuable than me) - doesn't help, it feels more like energy. I feel like cuckold sucking some stranger, and as I can't know if she recieved some cum on the face or mouth, its making it worse. Also the same about licking her fucked up cunt. It sounds funny, but when you think about it, even though you own the girl now, and she was wasted by some random encounter, then you are cuckold beta. Thus its making me sick and I am feeling violated now that its done. I am a very nature/universe hating person, and I don't like the thought of being in direct or indirect connection with rest of the human/animal world, so its bothering me a lot. Any similar thoughts?

EDIT: if you think I'm insane, then consider a vegetarian who refuses to eat animal's meat, conscious about suffering of animal even though he didn't kill it by his own hands - past, present, and future are all the same. (and no, I am not one, its just some analogy). Btw I would invest in her without bothersome thoughts if there weren't these embarassing facts that I suck someone elses dong whenever we kiss or she bullshits about "loving me".

If you're not trolling Stephen B, as I've said before, if you have so many problems with this chick, leave her. If you are trolling, troll on.

Bro...

You need to chill out. How did you find out this info sometimes the sources can't be relied upon to give legitimate information as they may have thier own agendas. If the girl herself told you that's different.

Why you muff diving on her for bro if your a vegetarian you shouldn't be down there anyway. That's like a veggie eating meat intentionally nobody in their right veggie mind would do that.

If she was with you and she lost her virginity and gave another dude head then you'd have a legit point if this is all from the past then dude you need to seriously look inside yourself and resolve any issues you be having.

Girls have sex they like sex its fulfilling. Now unless your around her twenty four seven you don't know what she's doing and who with.

Bro sort yourself out you got some issues don't entertain these thoughts go out there and do your thing.

I'm not trolling, I'm just trapped in certain life situation. If it was all my free will, I wouldn't be here at all, but life generallly sucks.
So lets stick with the topic, what about kissing the holes where someone pushed their dicks in?

Relationship-wise, we haven't had most passionate, intense, mature relationship worthy of novels until now because its her first ever, and reason being younger age as you know which equals skills. But you do agree that girl who acted slutty at any point should be thrown into the bothomless pits of void from the commitment ladder? So she can know a lesson. Sluts must be cut off from commitment, don't you think? The only problem is how much of evidence is enough for spotting a slut. I tend to agree with Heartiste on that, but its all fucking too much energy for a 'pick up' bullshit, be it RS or hookups, which I am now learning in life.

SLUT SHAMING IS HATRED OF MEN.

/Heartiste can eat a bag of dicks (link: http://eatabagofdicks.com/ ).

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Sluttery is the hatred of real men.
And that hatred comes from both parties, male and female, from the lower men who used the girl as object and then brag about it around: "oh yeah, I hit that cum dumpster, and she's gonna be someones girlfriend, he'll clean my stench and cum off her".

Its also evil because you put someones health at risk, and intrude ones moral universe/well-being against his will. Which makes you a sociopath.

Ever kiss your mom on the cheek? I bet your dad's cum has been all over her face. You basically have sucked your dad's dick. You're a sick fuck.

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No, not as far as I recall it. And don't bet, I never asked.

Then again I didn't stick my tongue into the holes where strangers dicks were pushed into with my mother, and she certainly didn't have memory that she had someones penis swallowed and now is giving it all to me, mouth-to-mouth. There isn't a possibility that she would get unconsciously aroused by it also, or that she would measure/compare anything thinking "oh, he's licking me down there where this guy rammed off my virginity". (practically being lowered by consuming leftovers). And we all know that first experience is remembered.

This is the natural jealousy men have. The best solution is to just not think about it. You take it a little too far. You aren't sucking someone else dong when you kiss her, come on, that is retarded.

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And to deny the fact is to rape ones nature in favor of someone else's. Thus people like Wolfwoodd are supporters of sociopathy, feministic/western insanity, and dictatorship.

On one hand, I am expressing my instincts/subjective feelings of being betatized, on the other - it literally is like drinking from a can someone else opened and left their saliva.

I didn't say deny it's existence. Quite the contrary, I suggested actively not thinking about it. As for your last comment, if you really think kissing a girl is the same as kissing a guys dick literally then you need serious professional help.

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How does it help to stop thinking about it?
I made a mistake and stayed with her and been dating her for almost a year. And the PUA community attacked me for slut-shaming, because I was surprised with her history. Not the number but the fact that she threw away her virginity with a stranger and sucked another the same night by playing the turn the bottle game, when 17yr old, while she made me wait a month for sex until we became official because it had to be 'special' for her. Which means I'm a sucker beta and now in trouble, since it lasted as relationship.

The problem is, none of you were in similar situation (as far as I know, nobody on the internet was), so you can't understand my state of mind. Most people wouldn't commit to such a girl, thats why no one had this problem.

Seems pretty simple to me. The problem is not your girl, the problem is you. This problem is going to get worse as you get older, because your beloved virgins are going to get harder and harder to find.

Personally, what I want in a woman is one who doesn't give her self freely to everyone. If she does, that means I'm nothing special for having earned it. That said, when I am with someone, I prefer her to have a LOT of whore in her. I get too bored with vanilla sex with the same person year after year.

I suggest you get to the core of why this disgusts you. Is it because of what you were taught about women/ladies growing up? Is it a narcisistic complex you have to conquer? Is it just plain and simple that you're not that into the girl and are looking for excuses why she isn't good enough for you?

We can't help you with this one bro. All we can do is reassure you that the issue is not something that is normal. If she had done these things WHILE with you, then it's a different issue. But as you described it, 4 months before you were together, that's actually a whole lot of none of your fucking business unless she rewards you with that information.

Well, she did. Half-information voluntarily - too quickly in dating stage, and the other half (blowjob part) few months later when I asked her myself about something that seemed to be missing in the story.