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well so wat happened how did u fall in a downslope o
Too answer your question, a few things happened.
the first was I had surgery that was supposed to end the chronic pain in my foot. The surgery instead make every thing worse, I walk with a more pronounce limp than I did before and I am in almost constant pain. Every second of every day.
The second was, for several reasons, I am no longer able to drive to game with my PUA friends in Grand Rapids. I know several PUA's but they live nearly an hours drive away from me. i used to commute to train with them, but it got to expensive and my schedule got too crowded, it's amazing I made it work as long as I did. My PUA friends were my support system, they were the best friends I ever had. They gave me valuable specific advice, and even more important they believed in me, they helped me build my self esteem. I need to have people like that where I actually live, that's why I'm so desperate to find wings in my home town.
The third thing that happened is that I was diagnosed with Asperger's syndrome. Asperbergs syndrome is similar to autism, it is characterised by difficult social interactions and trouble decoding human behavior. People with Aspergers often have great difficulty interpreting facial expressions or even telling one person from another. That part is completely true for me, I can't tell people apart, I won't recognize people I knew for years, it's wierd.
When I was diagnosed, it changed my frame. Everything seems so hopeless now. I feel like I was born with a defective brain, and I can't fix the problem, Im just cursed.
I know that is a stupid frame and I should kick my butt to get back to work, but I am struggling. I just can't keep up the energy to do this all the time.