| OK, so it took longer than I thought to get to a computer. Can't remember what I meant to update when I wrote my last post but I certainly have plenty to update now.
I'll start with NYE. Holy breakthroughs, SPAM. I went to a rave so it was kind of like playing with a cheat code on, since I (and most of the girls there) were on MDMA. Still quite proud of how it went though. I posted an FR on another site so I'll just copy and paste that here:
I'll just preface this by saying MDMA is a hell of a drug. I had tried it a couple of times before but the quality was shitty and it was just with a group of friends. Last night I went to a rave and got some. I saw the matrix.
I was in line for the bathroom after bumping it and HB7 comes up and offers me a kiss on the cheek to cut in line. I give her shit for a minute then agree but add "but we have to find each other later" or somethibg implying more than a kiss on the cheek. She agrees. Kiss was sensual, not just a peck. I feel like I handled this in a beta way. Ended up getting into comfort and find out we have the same major which is rare. This doesnt go anywhere. After the bathroom I dont see her again.
There was a 2set I approached waiting to get body paint. But they were both taken so I won't go into details. Helped give me social momentum though cause i did well with them.
This was all upstairs. Went down where it was music/dancing/lights. Did a few more approaches that were pleasant but didn't go anywhere. Then saw brunette HB7 dancing by herself. Came up and put my hands on her hips and said hey. Twirled her. She stopped halfway and started grinding. I moved her around a few times, alternating between front and back grinding. We were dancing facing each other and I ran my finger down the side of her face with strong eye contact. She holds. Long makeout session ensues. Alternate between dancing and sitting off to the side. Carressing her body and telling her how sexy it is. This girl is insecure. Thinks I'm bullshitting her? I eventually break away to hit the bathroom. Dont see her again.
After this I was a lone wolf again. Starting grinding with HB5. She kept turning around with intense eye contact. Made out for like 5 secs. She was a bad kisser and not that cute so I broke away.
Later on after hitting the bathroom again I open a 2set. Butch HB5 and a cute petite blonde HB7. They ask if i have a beer for HB7 since I'm wearing a backpack. I don't. The exact details are fuzzy but I started touching her waist and back after we started confort conversation. Eventually just look her in the eye and tell her shes cute. She returns it. Quick kiss. She acts a little flustered. Has a lollypop in her mouth. I tell her to take it out so I can kiss her more. She refuses. Eventually I just pull it out of her mouth and we make out. Shes a great kisser. Tells me I'm a good one. I tell her she tastes good. We make out up againstthe wall for at least a half hour, until they kick everyone out. I make the convo sexual. Tell her I think we'd be good in bed together because shes a cute little blonde and i bet she loves having a big strong man dominate her. Start pulling her hair and asking if its turning her on. It is. Start getting really aggressive, pushing her against the wall, squeezing her ass, dry humping her. Suggest she comes home with me. Says she cant ditch her friends but i should come back with them. Keep making out with sexual conversation. She was also shit testing me a lot, playing hard to get. Whenever she did this I'd just kiss her more and dare her to make me stop kissing her, saying that she wouldnt because she likes it too much.
Place closes, she talks to her friends about me coming back. It all looks good. Get into car with them. She texts the friend whose house shes staying at. Its a male friend and she says he doesnt want me to. I protest a bit but the friends are being bitchy and want me to get out. I ask if she wants to come to my place via cab but she says no cause its 5 am and the neighborhood is ghetto. Get out and text her later saying "its too bad our time got cut short." She texts back, saying she "definitely made the wrong decision". Going to try and seal the deal in the next couple days. Though she was rolling too so she could flake.
Oh PS i told her i was a virgin and she wouldnt believe me. Said i was "too charismatic". Ha! Never heard that one.
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I'll do some more analysis here. The biggest thing to take away here is how damn aggressive I was with both of the girls I made out with at length. In both cases (and with the one I only made out with for a few seconds), I escalated from the start of the interaction and ended up making out with them probably 5 minutes or less into it. With the first girl I was doing pretty good, she was into it but at the same time being really annoying by talking about her low self esteem. She also was moving my hand away when I'd feel her up. Not right away but after 30 seconds or so she'd move it.
The second girl was awesome though. So much more chemistry there and she was a better kisser. During the breaks between kissing I was basically just employing a combination of comfort and flirting. I got a verbal agreement to F-close and by the time the place was getting ready to close we were essentially figuring out logistics for how and where we'd bang. The c-block was unfortunate but understandable (since I'm a random dude she met at a rave and could be a serial killer for all they know). I haven't met up with her yet. Last week she went back home for the week. Had tentative plans for her to come over and watch a movie Friday. Actually, let me just write out how the first week of 2012 went...
So I texted her the next day, asking if she'd want to get drinks later in the week. She said yes. Then waited another day and texted asking her how tomorrow would work out. She said she was out of town and coming back Friday.
So I texted the girl I mentioned in my previous post...the one I number-closed by calling her cute. Just said "I'm thinking drinks at [Bar X] Wednesday night?" She texted back the next morning asking what time. We set up logistics and I met her there. This was a really interesting date. The girl has self-acknowledged issues. I wouldn't call her crazy but she's definitely an odd girl. She was wearing all black, just like the night I met her. Apparently this is her usual attire. She was asking me most of the questions, essentially interviewing me. But doing it in this weird way, she'd like tilt her head down and look up at me (the best way to describe the look is "jokingly creepy", I guess?) and say the questions in a sarcastic kind of way. Asked me "What's the most fucked up thing that's ever happened to you"...I told her my dad passed away almost 6 years ago. Hers just died this year apparently. This broke the conversation open. Talked about death/grieving/family shit for a while. It wasn't necessarily depressing though. It was a good conversation and there were practically zero lulls, unlike the other date I wrote about.
Eventually got into discussions about dating and sex. I think this happened when I talked about my mom dating, then said something about her being really religious, and how I could never date a religious girl. She qualified herself here by saying something about not having to worry about that with her. At one point she mentioned having the OKCupid app on her phone. Started talking about online dating. She said most of the guys she's hooked up with on there are younger, 21/22 or so (she's 28...I'm 23). Made a joke about her turning into a cougar.
I'm kinda jumping around here but this was 5 days ago so it's a bit fuzzy. At one point she brought up a detail of something I said during the approach. Since my phone was broken I was giving girls my number and I said something like "Honestly you're the third girl I've given my number to tonight." She brought that up and laughed about it, liked that I said that I guess? At one point I confessed to being a former shy dude. She reacted with surprise - "Really?"...and I kid you not..."I thought you were pretty ALPHA." Actually called me alpha. She used that word a few times referring to the ways guys approach her. Said "I hate beta" at one point. And also "So you went from beta to alpha...that's interesting..." seemed really intrigued. During our discussion of dating she told me she's cheated on every boyfriend she's had. So that immediately disqualifies her for relationship material, but I'm definitely interested in sleeping with her. I can't remember how this came up but I told her "I thought you looked good from behind" when I first decided to approach her, cause I saw her from behind first. She laughed hard and covered her mouth when I said that. She said something about how she's always had a nice ass, but her boobs got smaller since she started working out all the time. I told her boob size is overrated and I'd rather have small firm/perky ones than huge droopy ones. These are about all the details I can remember.
We took our tabs at the same time, she paid for herself. Went outside and she said something about telling her the next time I go to a rave cause she wants to go (she also mentioned this inside when I told her about my NYE). I said "Yeah, we can also have fun without going to a rave too." She laughed. Put my arm around her shoulder and started pulling her in, she said something like "What are you doing?" I said "What do you think?" and kissed her aggressively (with tongue...I normally wouldn't do that but it kind of just happened). I also squeezed her ass. She pulled away but she was laughing and just said "JBLAZE!" all surprised. I said "What?" with a shit-eating grin then did it again. She went with it. Pulled back and she was smiling so I said "One more" and did it again...then she laughed said "OK, bye!" and pushed me away.
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Some analysis on this: After the discussion of cheating and realizing all I'd want with this girl is a purely physical relationship I just decided to be aggressive as hell and swing for the fences. Seemed to go alright. I've sent a couple really sexually aggressive texts since then though and she hasn't been responsive.
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Girl from NYE texted me when I got home, just said "Hey watchya doing?" Told her I just got back from a bar, asked what she was up to. She was at a karaoke bar with her friends. Said "I was thinking instead of going to a bar we should just split a 6pack, smoke pot and watch a movie at my place." She texts back "oh my gosh sounds perfect". Did logistical texting later in the week, had tentative plans for her to come by Friday but she got back late at night so it didn't happen. Suggested I meet up with her and her friends at a bar Saturday. There's no way I'm doing that since I fucked it up so bad with the HB7 I went on a date with and wrote about in here before. Did text her that night to see what bar she was at in case I could hook up with her later in the night but no reply. Texted her yesterday asking when she's leaving the city (she goes to school in another part of the state)...she didn't reply til today. I'm going to wait at least a few hours before getting back. I don't want to get my hopes up too much but it looks like an F-close with this girl may be in my future.
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So in summary: 2012 has started off with a bang! 4 makeouts already, one girl I'd estimate I have at least a 60% chance of F-closing, and could potentially F-close the girl I went out with last week. It's finally happening...results! I still realize I have a lot of work to do, though. I may end up going out tonight. I'll probably write again in a week or so. I plan on doing some kind of analysis of my journey thus far, and I'll probably end up posting some FR's too. I'll cut it here since I have shit to do today.
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