As a man who enjoys a good roll I need to know, is it a substance you have experience with?
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So basically this girl finally came through and we have gone on three dates since (both of us are pretty busy so its been hard to meet up more). The last date was last night, and I was on a roll. We hit up a few bars, walked and talked a lot. She did open up a lot, which in my experience is a good thing. So I was feeling that I should go for a kiss at the end, but before I had a chance, she went in to hug me...and that was that. We agreed to watch a movie this weekend, so I didn't think much of it.
Anyways, since last night the texts have been different, and I'm just sensing she is not as excited about hanging out. I keep thinking I messed up big time, but if you were someone who was there and observing us, you would swear I was doing everything right.
MDMA is a fun drug, very fun, but you have to understand the tool to use it. It's primary effect is the dissolution of the ego, of the walls we throw up to separate ourselves from those around us. Everything from telling secrets about yourself to breaking it down on the dance floor seems like a fantastic idea so that you can lose yourself further to the crowd about you. On MDMA socialization IS crack. Take when you go out sarging and you'll find that you have no trouble keeping conversation alive, being fun, being energetic, basically being the life of a club. Take it with your best friend and you'll spend three hours of the peak telling your life story and finding a long lost sibling. MDMA enables you to overcome these fears but it doesn't eliminate them, as always the degree to which you open up is dependent on your comfort level, the MDMA just serves as a catalyst. In the case of this girl it sounds like you built tons of comfort but perhaps as a result neglected to maintain any elements of attraction. My advice, work in a little push, you've probably done plenty of pulling for now. Refrences: Some 20 personal experiences with Molly and it's dirty cousin X.