Hello everyone!

This will be my journal on the journey (hopefully) filled witd adventure, success, failure, self-improvement and transformation.

I will be posting here when ever something interesting happens (in terms of pickup) or when I get a new realization which I want to write down. I'll also be keeping a list of observations and ideas in my cell phone. I'll be trying to make at least one observation every day and post them here also. I'll post the link to my introduction post as soon as I get the 5 posts required to do so.

Any feedback, positive and negative, are very welcome.

Okay, first journal entry.

I want to talk about last saturday (February 5th). We had a gig with my band (I play guitar) in a town about 50km from here. I had just looked at some of Cajun's philosophy about body language and decided to try to implement some of his stuff on stage. I felt great the whole gig, kept a cool and collected, yet fun and energetic vibe on through the whole show. I could see the women in the audience responding to that and I tried to establish some eye contacts and get some connection going (which is surprisingly difficult with all the lights and stuff, even though everyone was watching me).

Anyway, the gig went great and afterwards in the backstage area a weird thing happened: a couple of random drunken dudes came in with some HB8 and complimented me on the show, shook my hand and stuff. We exchanged a few words and I began doing something else (changing my shoes or whatever). Suddenly this girl is standing right in front of me with an intense stare right into my eyes. She asked me if I had seen a marker pen anywhere. Now this might seem like a random question, but in those circles it pretty much means "would you like to have sex with me?" (It was in finnish so dont beat your self up if this doesn't make sense). Well, me being the AFC that I am, froze completely, mumbled something about not having seen one and got out of the backstage as quickly as possible. I never saw her again.

Nothing special happened for the rest of the night. I was trying to lock eye contact with a few girls a'la David Shade and had a couple of interesting looks thrown at me but we had to get going pretty soon so I didn't have a chance to really get in the game.

Now you might consider this a massive failure (wich it was of course) but I actually got a positive kick out of it. This was the first time a girl has ever come on to me so strong and it proves that all the stuff I learned about body language, eye contact, etc. really work! Of course I was kicking myself for the rest of the night and we had a good laugh about it with our drummer (who is pretty much a natural at this stuff). But all in all, it was a nice confidence booster. And I learned some new things about body language and stage prescence.

Oh yes, and to open up the list of observations:

Observation 1: Observations are difficult to make (just to get the list started )
Observation 2: Instead of saying (for example) "you have a nice bag" it might be better to say "I like your bag". (Stronger frame).

I've been thinking about my goals a lot recently. I wrote my main goals in my introduction thread, but I thought it might be helpful to think of some "sub-goals" that help me achieve those "main" ones.

Okay so I pretty much have two subgoals in mind:

1. Try to import the PUA&wingman-mentality to the group of friends I usually hang out with. Usually when we go out to bars or clubs one of two things happens: Either we just sit around drinking and talking shit and not giving a crap about any women (which is nice but it would be fun to get some action as well) or all the single guys just wander off and "fly solo" so to speak. So what I would like to accomplish is to start an open conversation about pickup within the group and try to get everyone to support each other, work as a team, give feedback, etc. I believe it would be a lot of fun to go out with some great friends with the purpose of developing our pickup skills and having fun at the same time. The positive peer pressure would also be a good motivational tool.

2. Create a large social circle within my university. I live on campus, but although I have a few good (male) friends here, I rarely hang out with them because everyone seems to have their own stuff going on. So what I want to do is start meeting new people, both guys and girls, and start being more social in general. This would, among other things, benefit my studies which is my main priorty at the moment. The campus area would also be a great place to perform social experiments and also to pick up chicks, because there are about 10000 students around my age who study here. Also, there is a popular party venue right next to my flat. So if I were to game there, it would be easy to move girls right over to my appartment. I'll be graduating in about 4-5 years and thats the time limit I've given myself to get this pickup thing handled.

I've been watching a lot of David D's material and right now I have some kind of understanding as to how I'm going to start developing different qualities about my self. First I'm going to focus on two things: Body language and Inner game. I believe these two aspects are the most important ones in the game and also they are ones I can work on constantly. I'm trying to be conscious of my body language at all times, how I walk, stand, sit, what kind of facial expression I have on at any given moment, etc. I'm also practicing holding eye contact with strangers who walk past me in the streets and generally trying to build stronger eye contact in daily contacts with people.

I'm also doing the same with inner game stuff: I'm trying to be aware of how I feel and how it affects my behaviour. For example, I was in a bar with my friends on saturday. I went to the counter to order a beer and there was this girl about 3 meters to my left. I glanced over at her and saw that she was looking my way. I made eye contact and noticed that my posture started to "collapse" under the pressure. She probably noticed this, because she looked away almost immediately after that and never looked back. So I got my beer and left to rejoin my buddies. I think this was a valuable lesson because now I know I need to work on being more solid physically and mentally when I initiate eye contact. It's also nice to see that I'm starting to notice these subtle things about myself that I wasn't aware of before.

Also, I'm not gonna post my list of observations here unless it's something profound. The observations I've made so far have been mostly situational and won't benefit anyone reading them here.