Yeah... that's not what I did.
This, if anything, will probably serve as a great guide of what NOT to do:
11:57pm: You know, last week around this time you were texting me just to say goodnight... am I the only one who misses those little good morning/night texts?
12:37: I don't think this is really easier either... we could have had two months of happiness...
1:00am: Did you even get my email the other day?
HER 1:17am: Yes
1:38am: I guess I didn't expect a yes... you know how much that hurts... don't you...
SIDENOTE: I forgot I had asked about the email, thought she was saying I was the only person to miss our texts... really though she may have meant both.
2:13am: I don't get it. Why didn't you cut things off right away when you got the letter? I hadn't fallen for you then... I could have handled it...
2:39am: I know it won't help, but I'm taking steps to relieve me of my virginity... I know you were really worried about that, and I don't think I can handle that response again... I just don't think you should have worried about my feelings so much... I would much rather have lost it to someone special and missed her... But I can't deal with losing another relationship over this. Looking for someone willing to do that sensate focus thing on craigslist. Wish me luck at least?
4:05am: Would so much rather have it been you... I'll miss you...
10:25am: Good morning NAME. (I really do miss that)
10:27am: I just wanted to apologize for last night... I thought I would be ok to drink... Guess not...
I'll delete you from my phone once I work up the guts.. that way it won't happen again...
maybe... maybe you can look me up when you come back or something...?
10:52am: I really would rather it be you. I'm obviously in love with you. Clearly I don't get to be with the person I loe though... ever. You think you're bitter? At least you've been loved! I guess this is goodbye... I really wish I could have been there for you through the upcoming months.
Oh, also alienated one of my close female friends by admitting I still had lingering feelings for her after she tried to comfort me too.
The only bright side right now is I got another girl's number a couple nights ago so at least I have a prospect... it's just hard to want to actually move on.
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