Came back from visiting my folks for christmas - kinda feel down or something. I didn't have good rest at all at my folks house, kinda thinking about shit - etc.. So, anyways, I got my smokes so that's good!

I went into Donuts Place and while this chick was walking towards the door I thought she was talking to me but she wasn't - she was on Bluetooth head set. So, I opened the door for her and said Merry Chirstmas. So, I got in line behind this chick.

STEALTH: Morning coffee huh?
HB7: No, getting some donuts - something to snack on!
STEALTH: What's your favorite donut?
HB7: Boston Cream
STEALTH: Never had that before - how's that?
HB7: It's good!

Basically being nice. I wish I would stop being a fucking retard for once. My brother showed me some pictures of last night and I almost wanted to bury a hole. I such a fat ass - it's not even funny! I was like, whoa! No wonder why I get fat ass girlfriends. I gotta lose weight and Dunken Donuts aren't a place. I lost motivation of working out - I don't know why. I'm gonna go to bed - i'm fucking tired as hell. Peace out!

I'm at the point of not wanting to talk to chicks anymore or be an royal ass to them.

My problem was - that I felt somehow looked down upon by my brother's wife - but I know it's in my head.

I don't know - maybe women can detect that I hate them - or they piss me off. Not sure - they know I'm different - like not like normal guys. I don't know what they can sense but they can sense that I'm not...I don't know - Normal in a sense. Like I'm a freak. ANyways, good night - yeah, I know it's only 10:54 am - but so what.

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Damn man, sounds like you got the holiday blues. It happens to the best of us. Just ride it out man. As far as workin out or thinking you're fat goes, that's all in your head. You know you can be fat(which you're probably not) and pick up chicks but if it fucks your brain, THEN you can't. Why do you hate your brothers wife? I know, she's probably lame. She probably thinks you're a bad influence haha. Don't they all. I bet you a bazillion dollars that if you went to the gym for 2 or 3 hours you'd feel a lot f'ing better. Working out seems to work better when you're an obsessed maniac about it. Either way, ride it out, you'll feel better soon.

fella.. i feel your pain...

i used to be a skinny teen.. sometimes it stopped me from pushing the button. but hang in there.. and heres why.

you sound like you are happy to talk to people in public places and thats a major f%cking break through man, that alone sets you apart, so slap yourself on the big-old-ass of yours.

thats right, i said you had a big ol ass, and so should you... love your big ass and belly man. if you dont care about it they wont. women are wonderful people, they judge us on the inside, honest they do. but they are also killers man, and if they smell weakness they take the kill.

I wont type on much more I'll just cut to the advice.

1. use google and find yourself some super big celebraties to idealise. history is littered with big fat men who are worshipped for 100s of reason. your size has nothing to do with your success and dont use it as an excuse. feel your head with positive imagies of great FAT men. even if you feel your room with posters of fat successful men.
2. do some exercise, anything, any kind of positive steps, whether its walking, lifting, shooting hoops etc... mentally you will feel fit and thats all you need. when i go to the gym i feel better than I actually look, and when I dont go to the gym I feel worse than I look, even though I know this it doesnt stop the feeling.
3. start off with women using only techniques, when it works you know why, when it doesn't its not personal, its just you need to work on technique. get three fun openers and go with them over and over.. in the queue with the girl, you can have used an opinion opener, "im getting donuts for my female friends, what do you suggest", whatever she said you could either be a bit neggy or a bit nice, depend on your read.
4. get a good friend to join in with you and do this night and day.
5. stop hating women..... thats just f'ing crazy talk. women are great they spend hours looking good for us... love women, all women.
6. dont worry about how a girl looks, just worry about if they are fun humans. the best sex i have had hasnt been with the prettiest women. fun women create fun times, all women are beautiful.
7. never second guess what a women wants from you. they are very different from us and yo will never know what they look for. they just want a man that gives them that feeling that, "he knows how to lead me through life"... its not a body type they are looking for.
8. never be sorry for yourself.
9. dont fear being tough on them. next time you open the door for a girl expect a thank you, if she doesnt give you one, say "hay! a little timy thank you would be nice..." (with a smile). when she thanks you, then give her a second line straight away - tell her that she's jumper her place and she should be behind you.... a little joke about a good view would be good. if she did say thanks, tell her its a "dollar a door". if she says yes or no, tell her you only opened the door half way, so its just 50cents, but if she lets you get in frint of her she can have it for free.
10. dont take it seriously, this stuff has nothing to do with your value as a human. being a good father, worker, son, friend, is all real stuff we should work on, this stuff is just for fun, dont let it creep into your psychology .

cheers and good luck.

LOL I was laughing when I read your post. Thanks! Father? I don't know about that now - kids are little aliens. I was walking through wal-mart and this chick was with this guy that looked bored as hell as she talked about a shirt and how beautiful it is. The guy's expression is priceless - one of those, "Oh, geez!" that made my day! I bet the guy wanted to shoot himself! Little joke there. Thanks!

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