My name is Stelios. I am 19.
I have a one itis. I am aware of it. I don’t obsess over her, but over myself.
Read on if you can give serious advise. Otherwise, leave this thread.

Yesterday I returned from a week long Paris trip with my family. Surpsisinlgy, there were other young people to socialize with, mostly 14-17 year old siblings.
And two sisters of 18 and 19.

In the group I was Alpha. In metro stations, people followed my lead. In Disneyland, I lead them everywhere. I groomed exquisitely. I was radiant with coolness, sometimes distant and alone, others intimate and cocky.
One of the sisters noticed.

I caught her glancing at me all the time. She began laughing and poking me. I made fun of her, let her hanging off me. She responded even more.
She asked me if I could show her to the toilets. And take her there.
Three times.
At nights, all the young dudes and dames would gather in a room and stay up till sunrise, spinning a bottle and asking tame questions.

I looked at how beautiful she looked. I froze, scrambling for the perfect line to say, never getting anywhere near it.
After my ignoring her, I
On the last night, everyone was sleeping on each other in a double bed. She was curled like a baby beside me, eyelids parting now and then, stealing glances at me. I touched a lock of hair. My hand pulled itself back.

It's good that they don't allow blades on the airplane; if they did, I'd have inflicted serious injury to my wrists. It's an acid rush inside me, and won't let go.

But, in retrospect, it's not about her; it's about Pathetic Me. This is the last time I'll let such a chance go by.
Right now, my eyes are fuzzy. I have only four hours till waking up, yet I'm here talking about her, asking for guidance.
I'm ready to give 100% to go after her. If I do decide, it's going to be the hardest thing I've ever tried - reasons undisclosed.

Two ways to go:

Ask her to meet up ASAP, before we forget each other.

Take my time, call/text her and ask her out next weekend.

Thank you for your time.

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