haha, classic epiphany
It happened when I woke up after dreaming about ravashing this babe from uni.
She is so incredibly good looking and perfect, that I havent even considered trying anything on her.

Normally id just think "Yeah, I havent tried anything cos its probly nto worth the effort. A girl like that will take a LOT of effort and I probably wont have results"
but WHY?
Ive realised that (although my luck with women isnt so bad compared to the average guy) I NEVER get/even try to get the girls I actually truly want.
Its as if Ive finally realised that im getting older, and should have all the confidence and want for "risk" in the world now, at 18, so at least I can look back at these days when Im a proper person and say "Well played" to myself.

How can I possibly go for the HB fkn 12s which I want, if I have such low confidence around them?
The low confidence probably doesnt show directly. I can still be a good conversationalist and not fidget etc, but I wont be able to kino without feeling awkward and non-comfortable
Iunno, its just like, I spose a girl of that callibre has never been interested in me, and that fact coupled with fucking douches being like "Nah man shes wayyy out of your league, shes taller and dates models lol dont even try" has ruined me.

All. I want, is to simply be able to score the girls I want to score, no matter how much of a challenge that should be. I cant imagine anything making me happier.

Finally, the question
What needs to be done?
hit me

my first piece of advise to you, is to try anyway with those 12's.

there has probably been alot of 'inner game' threads that have helped alot of people here but im a true believer that confidence and self-assurance comes when your nervous as fuck and sweating, but you STILL go for it. Thats when your balls will grow in a more permanent way and what will allow to go for the girl's you truly want. You also have to remember that girl's are not as shallow as your thinking, of course looking brad pitt and being 6'2" is going to help but girls want a guy that is confident and looks like he doesn't give a fuck, you know... "alpha."