| Hey so this might be a little long but I really need some help to change my life. PUA has changed my life drasticly and in my opinion i dont know if its good or bad... I think its bad though.
After learning some PUA going out there, I managed to get some numbers but honostly there is no follow up. I dont know why? Most girls numbers I got (prolly 4-5) were from university and during frosh week. It's soo easy to get numbers then because everyone is looking for new friends. Now i text these girls and none really respond good. I mean i get plain responses no IOI's and just no convo going. I honostly cant remember the last time i had a texting convo with an attractive girl i wanted. WIth this PUA I manged to get numbers, meet new girls...without knowing about piicking up girls I wouldn't meet the girl in my class today.
ITs so easy to meet girls in class especially if they are alone. I saw this girl , i didnt know anyone in class either i just sat beside her. Then i asked her if this is the class, she says ya then I go what section r you, she tells me... then i ask are you takin other courses aswell (summer school). Then the convo gets going.... end up talkin about things i ask her name she asks mine, then learn about her family etc. She is actually a shy person cause i always see her alone but when talking to her itwas pretty easy. I just ran out of things sometimes. She never started the convo after silence.
Anyways, I was thinking like wow this is good, met a girl... mmet somone new for once.
Today I go on my facebook and i then i asked my self should I? I say yes and i check my ex's facebook.! She deleted recently for som reason... i guess maybe she got jelous of me or still has feelings or just deleted me cause we dont talk.. i dont know .. but the point im trying to put out here is that ...wow she was HOT. I mean not so much her body, her body was not a beach body but her face. I would prolly consider her a 9 Why?
She has a normal average body, but her face is gorgous, and her personality is amazing. She likes to play video games can u believe that, i remember when we were dating ( i was whatl ike in grade 10) we wud jus chill and play games... hot gamer girl thats good!. Also i didnt hv to call her much, actually she called me mostly and we talked on msn mostly so i cud choose when i wanted to talk to her.( i actually liked talking toh er so it was like everyday) and yea but we didnt work out...she was my first gf and i was like so different than i am today.
I would not take control, she was the boss...i was not alpha, i didnt have much confidence, i was not cocky. I didnt think i was the SHIT... i just genuinly cared for her and treated her like a 'nice guy' type of person.
How can I still ahve feeelings for my EX? I mean comon i am disapointed in my self because it has been like 4 years since we broke up and i was so young then... Every since her my fisrt gf, i never got anotehr girl agian that i found attractive.
This is bad because i think the only way il get over her is if i actually attract another girl that i like more htan her. The girl I WANT has to be as good looking or better than her... And now when i look at my previous pickup today at school, it means nothing to me because the girl was not even as close to as good looking as my ex. Now that my ex has gotten older she got hotter i guess lol.... man fuk htis is so bad for me.
MY brother is a pua too i guess, he learned it after me and is succeededing with this girl.
U guys tell me not to compare others success to mine but how does somone who learns this after me get good with girls before me. He is basicly friend with benifiting a girl whos an 8 in my opinion. He wants to be gf/bf but she doesnt want to. I think he is on a leash and i told him but he is under the love spell if u know what i mean. I cant take him out... but hte girl is hot and he is getting experience...
What experience do I have? 1 makeout with my ex when i was grade 10 .. thats fucked for an 18 year old. I Stopped reading all this bullshit about pua last summer , i can just keep on reading and reading and i wont see success. Everything is about getting laid, and i am somone with no experience, i want to work up my experience from the ground up... if i havnt kissed a girl im not ganna want to fuck a girl ... Or maybe some of u guys might. All the material out there (well most) jus talks about picking up girls at clubs and doing 1 night stands... Thats not what im trying to learn. I dont want to become a 'PUA' I want to become somone like DON JUAN, somomne who girls like...
I want to start over, i think its the only way because i think my theory of how ot attract is just wrong. My personality has changed ever since my gf broke up with me and i picked up a pua book to attract 'any girl i wanted'. My personality has gotten bad....most of my girl friends ( friends that are girls) have left me. I have very few friends that are girls ( before i used to be popular and girls would like me for who i am) this is because i became cocky. I think I am TOO cocky and i know now and realized it doesnt work for me. It must have been DDang. that tought be cocky/funny is good. All of my cocky/funny things are funny, well tehy r funny to me but not my girls.. They will laugh in front of me but inside they feel like this guy is a jerk . Thats why my firneds left me...thats why girls dont like it.
I am asking u guys to help me out here n put me in the right direction for what i need to get what i want. I dont want to be a pua i want to be attractive. i want my personality to change ... IS there any video seminar u reccomend i watch? Should i watch Doubl Dating? I only watched half of it maybe thats why im too cocky?
I never actually compelted a book on pua ...except for 1. The attraction code (i dont think i learnd anything from that, what i did learn was taht u dont need a fancy pickp line to start the convo... i jsut say hey watsup)
please help me out, please i have to change my personality, my life.
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