I'm deeply in love with my girlfriend and she is simply the best thing thats ever happened to me. The other day she came back to uni and we all decided to drink, we went back to her room once everyone went to sleep and we did some foreplay.

Afterwards we were falling asleep then suddenly i was awake still buzzing, and made her give me a tit wank while she almost asleep. I felt like shit straight after and i've apologised a million times (even cried, which i have done in about 10 years ) and she said she thought about breaking up with me but shes decided to give me a second chance.

She says that shes lost a lot of trust in me and i hate that because i've been trying to build this trust for a very long time and i don't know why i did this, made me look like a hypnocrit and i hate that i've done this. Things seem a bit awkward now and shes mad at me, even though i've got the second chance i still feel like shit.

Will things ever be the same? She really means the world to me.

Depends...

What i conclude from your post is that you are a bit insecure... and afraid of losing her.

Work on that, it will do you and your relationship good. Work on your confidence if you not want to lose her.

Can you explain something for me? What is a "tit wank"?

Am I correct in thinking that what you described here was that you both were drunk and decided to have some foreplay after everyone went to sleep, then you found you were awake and buzzing so you had her jerk you off?

If so, why did you feel like shit after and why did you apologize? Why did she want to break up with you? How did she lose trust and why are you a hypocrite?

Can you give some more detail because I feel like I'm misunderstanding something here.

I think he grabbed her tits while she was asleep, but I'll let him clarify. If so, that's pretty creepy.