I'm turning 18 this week, but last year I had a party with at least 30 people, it was the biggest in our small little town..since then I joined homeschooling and now only have my close friends wich is two, I'm thinking about going go carrt racing but won't my close friends think i am a loser for just having them two celebrate my 18th birthday?? btw I haven't seen them in like 1 month

ALL I DO IS WIN WIN WIN!!! get your ass up and put some DJ Khaled on!!! the worth of a man is not decided by the number of people that show up to his parties. Your self worth needs to be generated from within!!!! that is the cornerstone of attraction.

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You can't forget about me, stupid. Everywhere I go ima have my own theme music.

I just went out to town with my best friend on my 18th birthday and nothing else. I don't know what kind of people your friends are, but I don't consider it weird to have a small celebration.

edit: Of course, that might not help with the not feeling like a loser thing. Getting rid of insecurity can take time, but there is a saying I like: "you can't be made a victim unless you feel like one". If you think going go-carting will be fun, and you don't want anything else than you have no reason to feel bad about it. As long as you're having fun, you're winning.... Just like Charlie Sheen is still winning http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pipTwjwrQYQ