| I met this girl at a club, she was staring at me, a guy was hitting on her, so i walked up to the guy and tapped him on the shoulder asked if that was his girlfriend, he said no and backed up so we started chatting...for about 3 seconds then started kino escalation like it was a high speed elevator. i take the number, call the next day...turns out she blacked out that night barely remembered my face...so good thing i stored my first and last into her phone.
called her the next day, posted up a happy hour date that evening, picked her up. very awkward at first when we got there...top 10 most awkward easily, we looked around like we were virgins. finally started checking out the menu, i decided if i didn't sit next to her it was game over, so i asked her if she knew what she wanted, she said no so i sat next to her, then shifted her to the other side. I knew she was game when she was drunk so i got a few shots, she got loose and everything went well. I knew alot of the really hot waitresses there so when they all flirtatiously greeted me she got player vibe.
I run seductive foreplay stuff by hristiyan, saying ballsy things and fractionating, and was funny most the time but didn't really connect deeply. I bounce to a different bar, more makouts, more dirty talk then we leave. i get into her place on the bathroom excuse, then seduce her onto the bed, we get to pretty much everything but the real vulnerable shy girl comes out, and i feel pretty much like a dirtball if i rail it. shes asking how many girls i fucked, whens the last time i fucked, all the uncomfortable questions which i kinda stutter. I normally have a quick answer but i wanted to be truthful...but god the truth would be a deal breaker!!! i say a month, and no more than two handfuls (big fat lies). We start fucking around again and right before so, she says maybe we should get to know each other, i arouse her and she wants to fuck i kinda back out of it. i make her cum she tries to jerk me off, i end up leaving the night.
if i fuck her i'm locked into a relationship of minimum 60-90 days, so...either im all in or im not fucking her cause the way she is, i feel like i could wreck her life if i play her like other girls, shes really sensitive. i like that though...she makes me feel human. so i play slow card so theres no buyers remorse from her.
Call her for the next few days, we share light convo thats funny, i finally finish my midterm 3 days later, i'm working out and she says hey is your last girlfriend ___ by any chance. i say yes shes a good girl didn't work out, she says her cousin knows her. i want to change subject say cool i wanna see her if shes off work yet. she says yes but has other plans that night.
That puts me in a tough spot, i can either wait like a faggot or just start gaming down other girls and say screw it. you know whats weird though, when i think of her and shes giving me attention i don't even have the urge to talk to other girls. but if i get the feeling its done or im losing it, i have no problem just ripping up the town searching for ho's. maybe i need to force myself to do both...i had 3-4 numbers from last weekend i haven't even touched yet, i feel like they don't even matter if this one works.
What should i do guys? you're my lifeline!
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