OK, now comes the time for a controversial topic and a little confessional.
Like some people who post on here, the luck I have had with laying HBs is nonexistant, maybe going to an all-boys boarding school might not have helped socially but hey let's not point fingers like that. I discovered the opposite sex at 17 (most peeps from my school knew a lot of girls from the other school in town) and it was exciting getting to know them as people, friends, company etc.
But I never got anywhere and I remember a few one-itis cases and also feelings of bitterness and resentment towards all those alpha tw*ts who could get laid with a girl I desired with no effort whatsoever. I remember one chap from my school who seemed to be very friendly with girls and zero boys. At first I thought he was the just a big player but more and more people realized he is actually gay and coming out and it dawned on me later that all these girls are just an army of fag-hags for him. And yes immediately I realized the truth of how much HBs love gay boys etc. They could cuddle and stroke each other like teddy bears and it would not be taken at all seriously. This made me feel a resentment and jealousy too.
After a while finding myself and recovering from rejections, social low status and all that I decided "Sod this, I may as well just gay it up", and by the time of my uni student years, aware that I have sometimes been accused of "camp mannerisms" in the not too distant past, I decided I may as well over-do the gayness and make some HBs think I may be a gay boy and we will be in each others company. And, for the most part it worked!

Yes, I was aware that I would not exactly get laid but apart from that I could see just how gay guys get close to girls in ways the average straight guy can not. And it has been fun, get me out of my shell, expanded my social horizons and developed me more as a person by just simply being able to socialize with attractive girls.
But, what's the big issue? Well, I am coming to the realisation that all this gay pretender thing is fun up to a point and feels almost like a joke wearing thin, if you know what I mean. And in the last few months I have been willing to make a change and get into daygame and PUA etc and take a very brave step - give up the "gay act". But, I am not finding it easy to open HBs otherwise (the advantage with appearing "gay" being self-explanatory), but of course as a random guy in town trying to open an HB and looking "gay", I don't even think that would be able to get towards a number close. It really is a self-contradicitng double edged sword and as far as any progress in the game is concerned I really feel stuck like you can not imagine.
Sorry for sounding crazy and confusing but thanks for reading. Have I just gone and confessed how luckless and loser-ish I have been in my time?
