| Alright, so I've met this girl online 4 months ago who lives in a different city/ It was like a relationship but then I said I was done and I left without a word for 8 weeks.
I texted 18 hours ago saying,
Me: Lydia, I've never randomly met someone so special far away, it's just that we should chat since it's been so long with so many things that have happened. I still like you and I miss you so I feel like talking again.
Her: You're too much. I like you but too much happened between us that I don't think it can work anymore"
Me: Alright then, it's just that there was no way of forgetting, especially living a few hours away. I will not force you to talk to me and it's fine with me as well. You're too much as well and we may meet someday in the future."
Her: We already forgot about this & it doesn't matter anymore. I want us to forget about this because I still don't think it will work out.
Now at this point I'm thinking that she's just uncertain and saying what she doesn't mean because the more I try, the less it works. So I've decided to take on the indifferent position and let her be with her own thoughts.
Me: Oh ok, it is what it is, who knows..take care Lydia. I still like you and you know we haven't forgotten and I know you're uncertain but I'll leave you with your thoughts for the moment.
Before I sent her that last message, she put her status up as: "Off to explore." And also changed her status to "Away". Then I put my status up as, "Love is when you take away the feeling, the passion, the romance and you find out you still care for that person." and then I logged out which is a mixed signal for her. "Wait a minute, this guy still loves me but he leaves! He didn't force anything and still showed me respect after how I responded to him; starting to feel regretful now." I think it's funny how she put up that "Off to explore." status. It just like, you're just starting to say you're off to explore now because we talked for the first time again in 8 weeks? Come on.
So I guess I'll just go on a different username (so she can't see me) to check her status every now and then in case she puts something up like, "I want you back." And I won't go on the original username anymore to talk to her unless I see something. As time goes by that status of mine about love will say, "3 days ago...7 days ago...20 days ago..2 months ago... etc."
I haven't begged, ass-kissed, apologized, brought up any history, tried to justify or forced anything. I understand that a lot of drama went on and I didn't want it to escalate into some argument and so I let her be instead (but I personally know I planted some seeds that will irritate her).
She also recently accepted my facebook friend request and for my relationship status it says, "It's complicated with (some other girl)".
I mean, I could already tell she was starting to get defensive and her words aren't what she feels. She began to show me that I have to play by her rules in order to start chasing her but I kept it relaxed and didn't chase after her like she expected me to. She thought that by putting up that status of "Off to explore" that I'll get jealous because she'll look after other guys and such. Really....Nope. I showed her instead that I'm not taking the bait and everything is up in her head..I still let her know that I love her and at the same time I tried showing that I'm a man and will not waste my time.
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