I like her and I know she likes me back. She has given me so many tests to see if I'm interested in her and I've rejected the majority of them. I just noticed all of this from re-thinking this whole thing through about her. I think she's beginning to close the door on me because I've pushed her away too much. She told me once, "I heard you're a player." And like a spineless idiot trying to play cool and smart, I replied with, "I guess so, but what does that change?" She said "Nothingreally." Anyways, I am soooo stupid. I first thought she was calling me out for it but after screwing it up, I realized that she was really testing me to see if I was right for her because WHY ELSE would she bring that up unless she was concerned .

I mean this PUA stuff is making me so blind and selfish. I'm not putting myself in the girls' shoes to really see what's going on through THEIR head.

Had this discussion about this girl with my dad whose in his early 60s and even he couldn't believe how I reacted and all.

I want to become nicer with this girl, open up a lot more. Not kissing ass, but definitely showing to her that I'm being a man and interested, letting her know how I feel. We both keep giving each other major IOIs and I'm still keeping my game up which is actually dragging me down. I have to become more serious about it and give show interest but I think it's too late.

My last try at her: At around 4:00 am, I'm going to text her saying, "I've had too many red bulls; finally in Atlanta after all that driving." And then 5 minutes later saying, "Aw you're sleeping. That's so cute ;p"

So when she wakes up and reads this the next morning, it should really show that I've been thinking about her and all. But what do you all think?