this may just be mental masturbation with the easy obvious answer but basically;
i started game back in august or should i say thats when i found out about it and a week or so later i started reading MM with the friend that introduces me, so some nights when we would be out, id open a set or 2 but itd be under the intoxication and a few times it took me a while.... i even isolated a lone wolf pretty sober but she wasnt really speaking to me much and i was doing terrible with how lame routines came across and lame ass qualifying and she kept saying about her boyfriend but still came over to a table from the main place with me whilst her friend danced. i even made out with a 32 year old HB8 who had her boyfriend out with her and buying me drinks (i only used a few mystery lines but no DHVs and i found all the scripted stuff made her less interested and just liked me being me) i really was the prize with her (im only 19!
) she was following me and introducing her to all my friends in a club where i was popular.
so yes i can socialise, i can kiss close, i can be the prize, willingness to walk away, be funny, be myself around girls im gaming.
but those were nights out with one fo 2 guys who were gamers (one was just natural) and they were just nights out having fun where i complimented with gaming. i used NO openers on these apart from asking a girl about a hoover because we were talking about them and had a good 15minute convo.
So its established i can have a good convo with girls, especailly when im with a friend, which is it. only when im with friends i get real talkative. what is this? are my friends the 'leaders' so to speak?.
because since one went travelling and the other went back to university, ive gone gaming by myself, sober on the weekends when i can and have now started going out every night just starting the past few days. BUT I CANT OPEN SETS or really feel the vibe of the place or feel loose, i couldnt make a conversation for my life or even really make a good "hey" and smile without thinking im a creep and not doing so, im trying to build a reaction of saying HI or something to any girl i want to speak to and say "alright" to guys but i think its im not in that clubbing mood being alone and sober and everyones conersation levels are very high and so are there energies.
btw, each good set ive had with girls that ive mentioned ive opened by myself or my friend near me, when it was about the hoover. and i could just talk to anyone a lot of the time and even spoke to 2 girls who happened to have boyfriends i knew but got a bit of interest off of them even though i wasnt trying just talking.
so now its my 8th night out alone over a LONG period because of college and busy weekends and i havent opened zero apart from DAY 7 when i said hi and a few questions or joke to 1 or 2 girls but really didnt know what to do next and they didnt seem interested, couldnt keep goddammn energy up.
ive done a bit of day game around my british college with a few successes but im still rejecting going further a bit because of me being me but getting better at accepting it also college just gives me a weird vibe when gaming) also in lesson a few girls like me but i dont really wanna go out with a girl in my lessons lol
Ive tried to detail it as much as possible and ive got a field report log of my 8 nights out, but it much be said that the passed 2 or 3 days have been me being a bit more full on and not just wimping out after a bit. i think i might need to try less busy venues but then i get paranoid about being on display.
note after a really bad night out on friday just been i made a decision that if i dont open, i have to sleep with no sheets or quilt and have built my days around 60's micro avoidance and getting as much stuff done during the day and keeping outside of the house so i feel im just an outdoors guy and not just for gaming.
please help guys, im spending this week off college to going out everyday and night and going up to a city to do day game.
im going to bed....with no bed sheets. also ive banned internet but this seemed important for a week where im going to be out day and night.
CHAT