pathetic??? Get ur act together and understand the life form u have chosen as a PUA. Pathetic is hidding at home all of life waiting for a beautiful girl to knock on ur door ready to fuck. U have more balls than anyone for getting the hell outta the house. Pathetic is the last thing u should consider urself.
My advice, go to the party where u r not the alpha male and rock on. YOU were invited to THAT party! YOU have the VALUE to be invited to the party. Get ur clothes ready,get ur accessories ready, and get 2 condoms in ur pocket (where u least expect to get laid....u do,i would know.)
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be the life of the party! Be

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. U got it in u! Dont wonder if ur in the right place or not. Just remember to not only be urself but your best self!!!! Good luck bud!