| I actually have a relevant life story that just happened to me...
I'm a 23 year old guy, I've been clinically depressed since High School, or rather that's where it was really cemented into my personality. My father was and is the kind of dad who fully believes that the best you can do for your son is to constantly break him down. All my life I only ever heard what I did wrong, rather than what I did right...
With girls, I always get the nice guy line, but I know that's because I'm so desperate for approval, and that is also why I've never gone anywhere with any of those chicks.
I know I have a lot of issues to sort through, but NLP really gives me hope, its the most logical solution for a guy like me who thinks a lot anyway, and who better to fix your problems than yourself, you just have to educate yourself.
That being said, in the last 7 months I've really begun to turn my life around. I got a job at a restaurant that I hated, but the social environment has done wonders for me. I moved in with my manager who is also my best friend of 12 years, and another waiter from the restaurant. I've lost enough weight to fit back into my "attractive" clothes and then some. The last 3 months or so, I really dived head first into NLP, and it was awesome to come to work and have people notice that I look different and act different.
So I've been kind of flirting with one of the girls that works at the restaurant. Made it transparent enough that everyone noticed, and started teasing me about it in front of her. Stuff like "you guys make the perfect couple". It was great to just have some girl to talk to, trying to make her laugh, and just building that self-esteem. So then my best friend and room-mate starts asking me if I like her. I told him I did, but I didn't want to make a big deal out of it right now. He always made fun of her, that she had a hot body, but an ugly face, I would not comment, but I see now he was just trying to see if I was into her. At this time he just got out of a 2 year relationship, and was already working on like 6 other chicks... which he actually came to me for advice on what he should text them to ask them out.
A couple weeks ago, I had two days off, on the first night I wasn't home, but when I got back I heard that my best friend invited the girl over for some wine, along with two other waiters and one of their gf. On the second night I was home, and he invites her over again, this time there were five of us, two left to go to sleep, and not wanting to sit there with the two of them like a dumbass I went to sleep, only to be able to spend the night listening to them make-out.
The next day he shows me the texts where he tells her they should just be friends, she agreed but left it open to anything in the future, and me like my old dumbass self, I told him that she totally left it open. But he said that he's done with her and that it would be great if I could keep quiet about it and not let the staff know. And like a dumbass I did.
I then hear from one of the cooks that my best friend is moving in on her now that he sees I'm interested in her. I kept my mouth shut about the other night, and just figured I had to do something, so I asked her out. She said she had to stay and eat something, so I didn't make a big deal out of it. She showed up later at my place because she felt bad for blowing me off, but nothing happened, all she did the whole night was give off a lot of sexual tension or anxiety, one of those but the body language was clear that something was on her mind but she wouldn't say what. When my best friend came home an hour later, I told her to go home because we both worked early in the morning.
A few nights later my best friend comes home and she walks in after him, more wine and a few hours later there my two room mates, the girl and me on the couch. One room mate goes to sleep and I follow shortly, I come back down a few minutes later to grab my phone, and they're making out on the couch, and don't even notice me until I'm already leaving. Then in the morning I get to find out that she spent the night in his room because she was too drunk to drive... and they have both assured me "that nothing happened".
Thats when I drew the line, I went in to work the same day and told everyone about them and everything from before, I figured I went through the rumor mill and I never even kissed her, so its only fair now that they've both fucked, that they got a shot at it.
I actually slipped at this point, I started blaming myself, like I have before, it was funny to see the progress that I had made in 7 months disappear overnight. IT was the usual, I'm not good enough for her bullshit that I've been feeding myself all this time. And it was actually my Dad, that snapped me out of it and helped me realize that I've done everything right over those 7 months, that it was my ex-best-friends selfish ego that drove him to try to sabotage what I had accomplished for myself. If he had stepped aside and focused on the other 6 girls he was in contact with, I may not have slept with this chick, but things would be much different.
The only thing is this girls hates me now, because I told everyone, she doesn't want to let me explain anything from my view, she only talks to my ex-best-friend. She just says that she doesn't care, she doesn't want to deal with all this because she didn't want a boyfriend she just wanted to fuck something...
But certain questions come to mind, like if her apartment is 10min from mine, why would he bring her over to our bachelor pad for employees and expect the privacy of not having employees find out. He did that because he was trying to hurt me, just like when he would bring his last gf into our old 1 bdrm apartment to fuck, even though his gf had her own place.
Or the last time he took a chick from me, I knew these two girls visiting from Europe, that I was entertaining, I invited him along to be my wingman, I told him which one I liked and that was the one he ended up making out with on the couch right in front of me.
You have to realize what is holding you back in life, write it down on a list, and then get rid of everything on that list. I'm moving out already, already put in my resignation at work. I have so many great things ahead of me I don't have time to waste on selfish people.
The only thing that pisses me off is that I see I"m gonna walk out of this situation looking like the asshole to everyone at work... and that sucks because I really got along great with everyone else. Only two people know the full story of what happened, and since I'm leaving that means the douche bag gets to say whatever he wants, and judging by the fact that this girl won't even let me explain, indicates that he's already said a lot of things.
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