| right, gonna try to simplify my story.
12 months ago, while exploring freshers week and all the good ground it has to offer to apply my game, i met a norwegian girl. sweet, gorgeous, really nice, girl next door, honestly. she went top of my list and didnt take long to admit to my mates "if i get that girl it will be for real".
long story short. (i wish)
she was doing her masters, i was on my second year of uni. i had 2 years to go she had 1. after that she was leaving back to Oslo.
at first it was simple and easy: we're together all the way through the year and when she had to leave she had to leave and we would just become friends that shared something special.
4 months into the "relationship" she asked me what i wanted from her in the future. what my feelings were. by the time she asked that, i had my mind set already for an answer. i gave her a set of options:
a) stay in london. i like you enough to go through with this all the way.
b) long distance relationship for a year and then i would meet her in oslo after finishing uni (i didnt want that, and probably undnt have taken it)
c) ey, this was never the plan, so if you wanna leave, thats alright with me, we can still be friends.
we went for the option a) but a week before the end of uni she got cold feet and left. i was broken, still i knew she was still into me, she was just not sure about that life changing when she only knew me for 7 months... i told her to go home and think about it, and said bye.
few day later we went from option a) to option b). things held alright during summer but, like i expected, things deteriorated in the last weeks. ending up with a break up a few days ago.
funny event, one day after the break up, got a job offer in oslo starting May 2011. in 8 months. obviously, the long distance is out of question and her coming to london for 8 months is not in her plans.
I've been friendly to her ever since the break up, flirting with her of SPAM and phone. laughing and joking, when inside i feel like shit. been trying to glamour her, make her see what shes missing. though she is certain about the break up, she still feels attracted.
so, the deal is:
is it doable hooking a girls feeling for 8 months even though your not together anymore?
am inclined to take the job in oslo and go there anyway, with or without her. its good money, i'll still have a chance with her and if i dont get her, there's plenty of hot girls around.
any suggestions guys? _________________ light of my life, fire of my loins. my sin, my soul.
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