Hello guys. I've done some great work in the PUA community, I've worked hard on inner game, though I'm generally naturally confident to begin with.
I've been involved in a few relationships and break ups, and I LOVE being single, and I LOVE gaming.
Last April, after about a year of being single and AMAZING, I met a girl named jessica, and knew I had to have her. it was the most brilliant seduction I've ever engineered. shortly after, I became attached and had VERY strong feelings for her. as did she for me. we started dating (she had recently gotten out of a long term relationship), but she was SO into me, and convinced me that she was totally over it and fine.
I have been in a couple serious relationships, and though I love gaming, am not afraid of serious relationships.. But Jessica and I were the most perfect relationship I've ever been a part of, equal feelings, Unbelievably compatible
We dated for about 5 months, the last two weeks of our relationship was categorized by her being completely unresponsive, and changing her stories about her ex.. She started off by saying that he was a terrible boyfriend, and neglected her and disliked their relationship, but it was clear for random reason after about 5 months, she had a re-flare up of relationship re-lapse. she defended him and was clearly still hung up. She still averred that WE were perfect, and I was the PERFECT boyfriend, but she didn't know if she could get over the relationship while being with me. It was devistating, but I understood. I was just assuming we would eventually get back together.. But for some reason it's been really hard on me. way harder than any relationship iv'e ever been in. I've recently come to find from an email that her friend forwarded to me, that she
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We broke up. He is everything I ever thought I wanted and I was so wrong. He's a great guy but I didn't love him. I was impressed by him and excited about him but then he just annoyed me all of the time. I am learning a lot about myself and life though. I've learned a lot about love too. I've only ever been in love once and I'm still in love with that person.
This hurt a LOT and I'm having a terrible time moving on.
I went out with friends with the purpose to game, and i had girls crawling all over me, but i just wasn't feeling it....
I am a smart man and know that it's all okay, and I'm not worried about girls or relationships or anything in the future, but I can't seem to get past this...
Any advice?