Hey...

Throughout the years I have gone through different phases with different problems: hard keeping eye contact, shyness at times... and general things like that.

But I feel I have fixed all of that, but I am still left with one problem, which is my lack of material. I think a life without game or too much social challenge leaves you kind of unequipped in the end. And thats how I feel now. I am just very much blank a lot of the time... and thinking up jokes... or even come-backs to friends is just out of the question. I dont know why, but I just cant seem to creatively pop up with interesting things to say, punch lines, or anything along those lines.

Though I have lived a richer more interesting life than most anybody I know, having moved around the world all my life etc... travelled a lot and still do... I have been very much on the extreme edge of life in many ways throughout my whole life and gone through many extreme phases... from being a hardcore punk sleeping with friends days on end on the streets to a hippy making his way from Noway to the southern tip of Portugal... to living big city life in Penthouses and dealing with criminal activity and being a solo lone wolf writing poetry and music in the most remote rural wilderness nooks of Norway...
Just last year I was traveling around Peru a year with a champion Staffordshire Bull Terrier I picked up there and working as a translator... just on an impulse decision.

So I should have material and lots of things to talk about. But I dont know how to perform it, not because I'm shy... I just dont know how you open and how you regulate how much to say, how too keep your cool, how not too drift on and on for too long.
I'm one of those perfect listening types, I feel most natural thinking deep about things, analyzing things, engaging in heavy conversations and debates... I'm very much the guy that falls into the friend zone. I'm really comfortable there, but I can't game. I can't be THAT guy...

I'm really good looking though and I usually pull girls in, but make flirting awkward really fast because I'm just not in that mode ever.

I just wish I had a library of material.

Any help anybody?

You dont have to be interesting in order to hold a convo, but ou gotta be witty.
You can build wit just by forcing yourself to talk to sets. Just overtime youl get better