Or is PUA a waste of time when it comes to what counts?
I have been asking questions here, and people have requested me to provide details of my situation, so here it is. Now that I wrote this, are you guys able to actually help me better?
Situation:
About 6 months ago, the start of my second winter semester in university, I met this girl through an English Class we had together. We sat together every class, and later became quick friends. Over time, as I learn more about her past, I fell for her. Her past is very similar to my and is very sad. Her daily life is dramatic and this year is her worst.
A month and a half later, when we were having a 2 week break from school because of the Winter Olympics, she decides to go visit her grandmother in her hometown. During this time I came across her blog where we can chat and ask her questions anonymously. Soon later, I discovered that her grandmother has passed away. Finding out about this, every day I would then chat with her on this site trying to cheer her up. Through the course of this time, chatting with her also made me happy, and slowly, I grew fond of her.
Days went by, she came back to school from her not-so-really vocation. In the next few days of class, I decided to ask her to go to the school beach with me. I asked her out on our way back. She told me that she couldn’t return my feelings.
After reading her blog, I knew. It is not like I didn't. I didn't want to give up. I believe that if you truly like someone, what ever their sexual orientation is you can still change how they feel with something call love.
After wards, she started opening up less to me and began avoiding me by skipping classes and not talking to me on msn. Our friendship also started falling apart because of this. However, this is not the point I am really trying to make. Her days got harder. More burdens were being placed on her, and the more I wanted to be able to be her leaning shoulders. She started working 5 days a week, studying for midterms that were coming up, and coping with her emotional struggle with her mother(after coming out). Two months later, the exam period nears, and the last thing we did together was when we stayed up together for 3 nights finishing up our English term paper.
English final day came. We didn't say our usual good byes as we headed our separate ways.
Two weeks passed after the English final concluding the end of the exam period. I tried hard to forget her. I stopped looking at her blog site. One day, after coming home from hanging out at a friend’s house with my old classmates, I decided to look at her blog again to see how she was doing. Then all my feelings came back.
I then once again hit her up on the anonymous chat site. Things were going well in my perspective. She still doesn’t know who I am, but I don’t mind. However, the next few days or so, there was a glitch on the site, and that glitch revealed who I was.
Later on, we continued chatting, and in between she called me a bs'er. (bs’er like a faker/liar). I would suspect that it has something to do with me having been anonymous, but not too perfectly sure.
I backed off and didn’t contact her for 3 weeks. 3 weeks later, I texted her to see if she’s wants to hang out on Sunday. She said “no" and asked me "if I can stop bothering her.”(in text) Later that night, she wrote a letter in her blog and mentions that “I wasn’t there for her when she needed it the most.”
These 6 months have been very long and tiring for the both of us, because none of us really got what we want. I believe that the right direction now is to keep trying as if I give up now, it would really hurt her feelings. I truly believe that apart of her wants me to be able to change how she feels.
So please help us achieve this goal through suggesting strategies, critiquing and commenting on them.
Additional Details:
Irrelevant details:
I also have a blog site like her where I can post anything that is on my mind. For example, journal entries, pictures, etc. During the 3 weeks that I timed myself out, I still look at her blog every day to see how she was doing, and I would post stuff on my blog in respond to it. So whenever I see her post something that suggests that she is upset, I would post funny pictures of dogs or cats on my blog. I wasn’t too sure if she was even looking at my blog though, because she doesn’t know about it.
And at times, she would post things on her blog that seem like they were also in respond to my. At that time, I doubted whether she the “you” she is referring to in her blog was me or some other special person in her life, so I was too afraid to find out and ask her.
3 weeks later, I texted her, and in that letter she wrote revealed things that she could only have known if she’s been reading my blog as well.
Assumption now: is she is still reading my blog. Recently, she’s changed her blog, but I’ve managed to find it anyhow.
Parts of our conversation on the anonymous chatting site of when we first started:
Parts of our conversation on that anonymous asking site:
Me: Incest only happens once every 38 years. Wud you still b in the mood nxt time around =p?
Her: oh WOW, this is by far the most fucked up thing I've ever gotten. to answer your question, not everything revolves around sex; I haven't seen my dad in 3 years so i guess it makes sense to spend it with him on CHINESE NEW YEAR, fyi. Never know tho, maybe next time around, i will be screwing your mother =). EWWWWW, did i JUST say that?
Me: back off, my mothers spending valentines with me. but tell me, are all bisexuals dominant in their relationships? or at least when it comes down to sex
Her: lol, and U are asking me about incest? you're so cute. so are you a bicurious man/woman? lmfao. why don't you ask a bisexual to find out to see if she/he likes top or bottom. I am just an innocent girl who knows nothing about sex =). HAHAHAHAHA. you made my day. add me as a fd on fb if you aint one yet LOL.
Me: I don’t know how it works in your family, but I have a normal family, we don’t let incest slide, and as far as the term bisexual is concerned, ur just about as innocent as Paris Hilton. You gotta earn me on fb by making my day.
Her: Im sure your family is “normal” for having a kid like you asking ppl incestuous question=). And I respect that lmfao. LOL, I feel honored to be compared to paris hilton.
Me: your calling me a creep because u have bad social intuition, im filing for divorce now, u can keep the tissue box. u dont kno any 1 who lives in whistler "yet" because ur lame =p?
Her: oh kayyyyyyy.....creep =P. want me to buy you a piece of chocolate when i find out who you are? HAHA.
How about u give me the chocolate first, before i tell u who i am, u stalker :/?
lmao I love how you call ME a stalker =)
Goal: Make her want me through seeing my values.
Plan: By expressing how I feel to her, and amplifying the positive feelings she still has for me to the point that there is attraction.
Side note: Her mood at this point. She feels a little guilty for hurting me, and is still looking at my blog.
Thanks ! 
CHAT