Ok, here's the verdict.

She "doesn't like me", but I usually keep confident and chill, and talk to everyone else (Keep positive and keep social with all other workers). When we have 3-4 people in the group, and we're in proximity, she goes back and forth; she wants to be near the conversation, but she moves away. She has this nervous, yet interested look on her face; she comes up to me, but goes away at the same time.

This chick also has issues. I tend to set my own rules of operation on the floor, and she always gets pissed off because "I don't listen to her and follow the rules". As much as I want her, I'm not going to change who I am for her.

I kinda fucked up as well; I showed affection towards her (I even wrote her a letter, in a moment of weakness). Keep in mind, this was done BEFORE I got my shit together, and realized how stuff really works (Keeping in the present).

She likes me, but she's taking advantage of the fact that I like her too; which means only one thing; sadly, I have to be 3x the dick to her, but also manage to be sweet and thoughtful as well.

This is what happens when you get soft on a girl; you show one sign of affection, and they trap you in a vortex of fatal bullshit. Ironically, the more I treated her like shit, the more she liked me. Man, this PUA stuff is legit real. It's not even PUA stuff; this is REALITY under the frame of "Pick up".

I mean, shit; most of the dicks (Who are just positive guys who have no time to mingle or compete with "losers" in their eyes), outwardly ACT like shit to her, but then do little "nice" gestures on the side to wane her back and forth.

I don't know or care; I'm here right now, but damn man. As of right now, I gotta get my asshole side back; I need a smack in the face. Gotta be a dick again. No more niceties; even if SHE is worth it. She likes me AS A DICK, not me for who I am.


But in all honesty, forget her. I work with her, so I have to make do with what I've got when I'm not out and about socializing elsewhere. I still want to fuck her, so I'll just run the dick attitude until she's slobbing on my cock, and then I'll keep treating her like shit.



...I just realized something: I'm putting too much emphasis on this chick. She's nothing to me; just a coworker.

The mere fact I've grown to like her...is stupid. I should be liking myself more than her (which I do; I love Rune more than anything). I let the flirting and the BS get to me; I need to re-establish my dominance, or I'm FUCKED.

It's what it is. I will do what works.
And that is to be the fucking man, in spite of outcomes.



Oh jesus, I realized I wasted a post with this. Why am I placing so much emphasis on a broad?! I am Rune, and my calling in life is to be the fucking best Rune the world can embrace, yet...I let a broad change my outlook, and she hates me because I'm putting her above me.

OH GOD. I just learned something!
Victory.

Well, the path is set.

Guys, don't let any girl sway you from your life mission; you do what you gotta do, and if the girl don't like it, forget her; I've got more girls to see and do.

Phew...I'll keep you guys updated.

Yep.

I'm really hung on this girl man. REALLY hung on this girl.

I want her back. I want the old her; the one that doesn't dislike me; the one I used to flirt with and be close to everyday.

I don't give a shit man. Even AFTER I've hooked up with other chicks, and met new girls, I still want her, and she wants me too.

Yet, everytime we grow a bit closer from hating each other, she comes out and rags on me for every small bad thing I do.

"Stop ignoring people"
"I don't like you."
"Make sure you do everything correctly"
"Don't do this"
"Don't do that"
"etc..."

I know she's just feeling mad at me, and I'm trying to change her mood so that she's happy around me, but DAMMIT man, every time she tells me something like that, I feel like she's treating me as if I was less than a human being. I don't like being talked down to, ESPECIALLY FROM A GIRL.

What should I do?

When she starts trying to boss you around at work and getting mad, have you tried to just ignore her instead of being an ass? I dunno, just an idea.. not sure how much seniority she has over you at your job though.

Maybe next time she's actually somewhat nice to you, and happy and things are the way they used to be, you could bring it up.. say something along the lines of "You're a cooler girl when you aren't nagging on me about nothing" Then see what she says, hopefully it would make her start acting the way you want her to.

I have no clue if this would work, I haven't really been in a situation like this with a co-worker before. I'm just throwing out a couple suggestions. Let us know how it goes and good luck

Ok, got my frame of operation set down.

Now, to evaluate what happened, what it is now, and what I must do.

I decided that this girl is worth the struggle. Why?

1)I work with her, and I like my job.
2)It is POSSIBLE to repair the rift, and even make her my FWB.
3)She's fucking hot and awesome at the same time.

Here is why she was a bitch to me:
1)My manager asked why me and her were arguing on the sales floor. Out of frustration, I said she was doing this this and that. She got pulled in. We kept arguing. After that, she basically went off, saying "I don't like you", "I don't like your personality", and acted like a total bitch.

2)Before then, she was in LOVE WITH ME. But, I thought "Hey, let me be a total HEARTLESS DICK and abuse her emotionally." After all, I thought that's what being an AMOG was all about; being the brute. WRONG. Dead wrong. It's not even about being an AMOG, it's about the present moment, and maximizing it.

3)According to her, I "act like a little kid", and needed to grow a pair of balls. She was right; I was acting like a douchebag child, and not the man she needs in her life.

From there, it was about a month of balancing chainsaws; she was mad at me, and I was mad at her.

Then, I realized "Hmm...I'm fucking up a bit. Let me see..."

-I changed my work operations; now I developed a system that allows me to finish my deparment in less than 2 hours, and have the rest of the time to maximize everything (Which I did, and impressed EVERYONE on my sales team).

-Instead of dwelling on stupid bullshit, I kept in the present, and maximized every situation with everyone I met. I am popular once again, and beloved by all.

-I'm back at the gym, and I'm almost ripped. Abs are minimal, but I am going death-crazy at the gym.

..she ALWAYS looks at me. Always. Always.
Always looks at me. Even when I'm not looking, I know she's looking at me.

(I don't care, but it is what it is).

We talk, and when she speaks to me, she talks as if she's afraid of me. It's not because I'm a creepo; I think she fears me.

About a week ago, I was on the level; my work was done on time, I was being social, and everything was good.

Dude, she went over to my side and started fixing my area. I pretended not to notice.

The 2nd day, she normally leaves an hour before closing...
...she asked our manager if she could stay to close to help me out (Reason being; it was a big sale day tomorrow, and she wanted to make her side "perfect")

When she comes back from break, she always walks by me.
When she goes home, she never walks by me.

...as of now, it's whatever. I'm not dwelling on those, I'm merely stating what happened, and the above happened on numerous occasions.

As of now, I'm here typing.

Now, when I go to work tomorrow, she will be there.
This is my plan of action:

1)Pretend I don't give a shit about her, and do my work. (I really do like her, but I don't want to screw this up).

2)Do my work 200%, as usual

3)Study for my Series 7 during break.


I need insight, but from someone who knows what's going on, or knows something I don't. I'm all ears and faith.

Question: Can a bad situation become good again?

Lol. Good catch.
!

...wait a sec.

1)Games? You mean, ...honestly, something's not clicking.
I wasn't aware I was playing "games".

Perhaps an example scenario?

and 2) ...Something's missing from my social skillset. As of now, I just noticed a foggy blank spot in my understanding of "PUA".

A hint as to what that missing aspect might be?

Woah.

I have run into a locked door; I know nothing of what was just said.

...1000 thoughts running through my head a second.
None of them are right.

Heh.

Well, let me see this one:
When I take away the plan...
...I'm still me.

-On one end, I realized I'm trying to change myself for her, which is WRONG. But,...No, No buts...



Ok Hobbit, I don't know what the fuck I'm doing right now. lol.

Nothing has changed.

The "plan" I made is pointless, because it isn't intended for now.

...Somethi...no, not even.
Am I sabotaging myself thinking about her right now?

Is it really that simple...in that all that matters is building a positive vibe when the moment is appropriate?

...I know nothing, yet, at this very moment, I know everything.

And to know nothing is to know everything.

Oh what the hell am I smoking right now? Better yet, why do I feel like a "?" right now?

...again, I've arrived at the point of crossing.

Right now, "she" is irrelevant, because she is not in THIS moment.

When she IS in the moment, all I must do...is do.

But one thing's been drawing blanks on me, and that's "Playing games".




I'm not aware of what "Playing games" entails.
I can't even think of a concept.

Here's my dilemma: A contradiction.

Are not the PUA skills "Playing games?". What of two people who LIKE each other a lot? If I stay in my moment, I will use what I know...


...but now, AT THIS MOMENT, I would be shooting blanks, because I'm not seeing something. It's this "playing games" aspect.

Should I tell her I like her; when the moment calls for it?
Should I shut up and pretend I don't?

Will she reject me?

I don't know; I am obligated to shoot and score. I may miss, I may succeed.

But, I work with this girl. If I shoot and fail, forget about it; my work life, and hers, are compromised.

But if she does, then all is well.

If it works, everything will go well.
If it doesn't work, that could mean my job, or her job, as neither of us will...wait, how the fuck do I know the future?

...right now, I'm planning for a fake future; one that doesn't exist yet.







Ok, rewind:

What the hell does "Playing games" mean? Can someone make me aware of "playing games?"

Ok.

I've made a decision.

I am giving my two weeks at work. It is done.
It is done.

I don't think I have depression, but I'm suffering symptoms. This girl has destroyed my frame, and I'm picking up the pieces.

All because I opened my mouth.

All because I couldn't stay in the present back then. I was always THINKING. That's why I'm suffering now.

I am going to move on.
I have to.

I have moved on, in my head.
My heart's hung up on her.

But apparently, there are no such thing as second chances.

The girl already has her man of 3 years (Who she ALMOST left for me). I failed. She has leverage. I don't.

I got burned, and there's no way to extinguish the burning ship. I have to leave the galleon behind.

All because I couldn't stay in the present.

THINKING KILLED OUR RELATIONSHIP.

CRITICAL THINKING KILLED MY POTENTIAL WIFE.




Thought killed love.

And thus, tragedy was born.