So, the last few weeks for me have been all about getting to a point where I can talk to anyone and overcome my AA. But tonight, after a couple beers with a friend I went back to square one.

I saw a girl, probably the first girl since starting this that I actually fancied. But I convinced myself with a barrage of excuses that it wasn't worth it. I wasn't staying long, my friend was leaving soon, I'd drunk too much, I was fucking worthless.

I'm so fucking sick of the way I've been feeling but I know I'm going to just clam right up the next time this happens.

I've been trying NLP to make myself more confident and it has been working in general day to day life and with game to a certain extent. But I seem to have this block when it really comes down to it. When I feel I like a person based on first instinct I shut up, or lose my nerve which makes me less funny, less confident and as a result, less likeable.

But tonight, and maybe its just the beer, I left that pub and filled up with so much regret that it's almost physically hurting me! But at the same time I feel almost enlightened. I suppose it's the same as a 'fuck you' moment.

To all the people that said I was useless at whatever it was I was choosing to do that particular week...fuck you.

I say this is what everyone needs, because I've never been more angry at myself. But I've never felt more alive. I feel like Saturday, when I hit Cardiff city, I can finally let loose. No cheat sheet, no canned openers...

Just me.

I know how to play the game. I've read, I've even field tested on the days I've been feeling ultra brave. But never like this.

Saturday...the town will be painted red with my testosterone. Because apparently my testosterone is red and bursting out of my ears, my jap eye and possibly even my anus.

So, in honour of everyone that just one day decided to give up on their normal life and tried something new that they fell in love with and realised that, for the last however many years they had just been living a lie inside a shell that wasn't their soul, this Saturday go out to the town or city you live in and pull a girl. I'll be doing the same. And I fucking well assure you that I'll leave her in a better state than I found her.

And she will sure as shit be begging me for more.

I fucking love the game. And I am going to play it properly.

Goodnight x

Good story.

But what is exactly the question?

I think in my drunken haze I just clicked and typed.

I'm usually more careful than that.

Mods can move it, if they want.

I'm actually not that happy with my seemingly incoherent ramblings anyway.

why are you shy about feeling GREAT!!!

good post and amazing enlightenment... seems like youre getting the point off all this

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I think you've come to the realization that it's not all about the outer game.

Sure you can know your canned shit, and those are helpful, but really you should take all the openers written by the big gurus, take the MAIN IDEA that's presented in both of them, in terms of why this question etc., and then make your OWN that are congruent to your personality.

This is a big realization to come to, and at some point we all have to do it. Good luck with your inner game, and realize that there's no better way to remedy it and find who you are than through experience itself.

The topic has been addressed in a bit more detail here if you want to see what some other members of the community think about it:
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Night one of a new life...

Let's see how it goes. I'll keep you informed. x

Good on you mate, whats life if you cant live it eh?

I mean we are PICKING UP GORGEOUS WOMEN!!!!!!! How can you not be pumped n not be up for that??? Stick to it n have fun!

Right then....again, I've had too much to drink tonight. Tonight though, I am absolutely blasted.

Apparently I'm a part time PUA and a full time alcoholic.

Either way, I spent the entire night gaming one girl. She has a bf and I've known her for maybe four years, and haven't seen her in two. I pretty much ignored an opener, and was able to kino escalate from the get go. I got her to buy me a beer in exchange for good stories, etc...

Eventually I walked her home. Nothing happened but I could feel an energy which said she really wanted something to. This happened both in the club and when I walked her home. And she is dying to see me again.

I might go over this is more deets tomorrow, but for now just rest assured that I had fun.

Now to sober up xxx

Step 1. Avoid LJBF. Sounds good so far.
Step 2. http://www.seductiontuition.com/harmles ... oyers.html

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