I have access to great information and I have experience using what I know. I try to further understand what I know and learn new fun ways of conveying it. basically I am a man of age, not looking to sleep with every girl in the crowed, but the one who has the ability to seize the one that would satisfy me. freedom & love baby, I love the stars! If anyone would like to help an aspiring 20 year old on the brink of transformation, finding his path and purpose then please introduce yourself!

In doing all of this i was actually looking to acquire some access to good advice. I would like to see what you all have to say about this setup. 4 months flying on auto pilot aware of the model but not recognizing it or applying it. I started to crassssh, The information and thinking I was using and exposed to limited my responses and made me seem and feel needy.

quite frankly freedom and love are my universals for both sexes. By freedom i mean the choice of truth or deception. by love, i mean a feeling of mutual attraction physically mentally and emotionally, i don't attach love to the past but the moment. I use like to define what appeals to me.

The young lady I was with had a thing with keeping up with all of her exboyfriends. she says they were her friends... fuck that, they were attracted and so was she. Straight up never liked her having anything to do with them... seemed to be living in the past! I always threw out super attractive alpha male qualities when I was faced with this. I didn't take shit. Eventually I found that I qualifying myself and always wanting to build rapport and seek attention! Always compromising on my wants/needs to balance with hers.

She ends up being kissed by/kissed back an ex boyfriend whom she says she loves. Keep in mind In all this time I have told this girl I loved her 3-4 times. We ended up hanging out having sex for months after the break up. one day she decides not to call me or answer my text for 9 days... i sent maybe 2 text and called 3 times in that time leaving 2 messages. So basically now we are at the point where she has this future planned out for herself making the long distance relationship we had, be further. Long distance is great for me, I like to keep to myself and be with nature. After hanging out at a concert new years, being rejected on a kiss... i admit i wasn't feeling it but it just didn't seem to happen and thats cool.. w/e. I gave her a substantial present and said bye, when she got home i told her that I wasn't comfortable being friends... I'd rather die than do that and that the shield she had for her attraction for me was causing me not to want to be around her. I told her that I was done with her.

I know this is the fast track to losing her to guys like you as she in my eyes is a rear catch. I feel a great loss of attraction for her, but I still would like to pursue relations further down the line. I asked her not to contact me for 3 months in anyway, done this before but I am committed this time. [b]Have I taken the right action in eliminating the just friends from our relationship? [/b]Better financial situations will be brought before me early this year. I know that wont increase my happiness but it will certainly change something.

It looks like a lost cause to me. Just forget it and move on.