| I've recently gone through a very distinct phase of change in not only my game, but my lifestyle and my attitude. For the last couple months I have slowly become more secluded, less organized, and my outlook has overall rotted. I don't see things the same I used to. Overall my perspective has relaxed, but maybe too much.
It started with my perspective on pickup. I veered off the beaten path and avoided canned material and challenges and conventional means of approaching pick up, mainly because I couldn't bring myself to do it. Some of it I was terrified to even attempt (can you say approach anxiety?) and some of it I just didn't see as necessary. My results have reflected that - my success with women has improved ever so slightly, a couple kiss closes in the past month.
At first I thought I was just failing my commitment to this community and lifestyle completely, but then I realized what I was doing subconsciously and how this whole pickup thing has changed my core. I have become a more confident person, and the one thing I really noticed was the integration of my core self (who I originally am) and my projected self (who I would like to be). It shows that I am beginning to see a change. The way I approach life and the challenges it presents has greatly changed, I approach them more confidently and with more natural charisma. All I lack right now is the organization and discipline to commit to this change and see it through, making it completely positive.
I just got out of a tunnel. I haven't been to the gym in two and a half weeks. I've got tons of schoolwork to do and I haven't touched any of it in two weeks. I don't see friends very often, I hardly go out, and basically all I've done in the past few weeks is play video games, eat, and sleep. That is practically it. My approach to life has lost its spirit, and I'm slowly getting worse.
I need to wake up from this sleepy drift and get back into the flow of life.
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