| Let me brief ya all in.
You can skip this if you, its just to show you all what im goin through right now.
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So this girl i've like throughout all of high school seems like she wants to give me a shot. Now you're thinking,"well your in, why do you need to tell her your feelings?" Ok, I spent 3 1/2 years liking this girl. In my senior year i decided to ask her out, i was a HUGE AFC at the time. I asked her out, she said yeah, but then she rushed into class. I rushed into it, i talked to her like only a few time, yeah i know i screwed up guys. I had HUGE ONEITUS back then. I fell into a 4 month depression, she was the first girl i ever asked out, and i never had a girlfriend before, so yeah, I'm sure thats something similar for all of you right? Durring those 4 months i told myself "I dont wanna feel this pain again", Also my insecurities took over completely, i became scared of the world... Then a friend of mine gave me David D.'s book.
Then he started turning me to other material, and this forum. I began learning body language, cocky funny, how to be alpha, get a sense of style. I changed completely, before i knew it, after those 4 months, i became more out going. I began meeting people through school, got invited to parties, more importantly began meeting new girls. Anyway, I was thinking about how great all of this was and what a enlightening maturing experience it was for me. I went from the quite loser at school to the life of the party. Now when other guys have problems, they come to me for help. I'm so much more confident about myself in everyway. I managed to make the most out of my senior year even if it only was the last 3 months of school.
Anyway, I was thinking, if it weren't for this girl, I'd probably still be the same loser from back then. So I was thinking about giving her this thank you note. It was just gona say thank you, show only a lil intrest in it, and just give a explanation of everything that happened of why i choked after i asked her out n avoided her n what not. And if she cared she'd still keep in touch. So the day before diploma distribution i sent her a message on myspace cuz i couldnt reach her, saying;
"Hey its me _____(duh) I was wondering what time you were picking up your diploma, i gota give you something."
If she asked what it was, I had some C and F ready to say;
"You'll see when I give it t you, but don't get your hopes up, its nothing flashy or glamorous."
Anyway, she didn't get the message till 5 days after diploma distribution, the message i sent her finally said "read" But i never got a reply, that is until today (2 weeks after she got the message) at 1:27 am and she says.
"hey i read ur message on myspace but i guess it was kinda late when i did..
was it something very important that u were going to tellme ?"
I NEVER SAID TELL. Anyway, She replied on FACEBOOK instead of Myspace. Lately I put up a few pics of me at a party n what not, I looked like i was having a good time, you wouldnt recognize me from my old photos, with my new clothing style i looked so much more out there. Maybe she saw these and thought differently of me? Anyway I was thinking, should I still give her the note? Or meet up with her and tell her how i feel. Im not obsessed with her anymore, but if i have an opportunity with her, I wouldnt want to let it pass by, I'd like to make her my gf, but iono what to reply, im stuck for once, im back where i started =/.
To me it looks like she was wondering wether or not she wanted to bother with me, and decided to give me a shot, maybe thats why she waited 2 weeks?
This is an HB8-9 , and there arent anymore social dynamics now that hs is over.
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