| Okay it's like this... I've had a casual fling with a girl five or six months ago. I mean, physically, it was casual, no sex, I just kiss-closed her once or twice. Along the way I turned an AFC and she left me. (For a guy who was even worst.)
Or at least I though I turned AFC. I mean, she is, and always was, complaining that I don't care for her, that in a relationship she'd be the one wanting to be with me, that I'd get tired of her easily. It was a lie, I was totally in love with her.
Things got bad, I cried on the phone when she told she had another guy (totally AFC, couldn't control myself... Even so, she still had doubts.), and I also told I'd get away from her now, because I didn't like to put in "second place".
Three or four months later, we ended up talking again (it was kind of innevitable, we are in the same class... It was hard ignoring her for those months already).
We still had some trouble, because she thought I was trying to make her jealous by hanging out with her best friend (which I wasn't).
We ended up being friends ago. Still, I've been rocking on my back foot, letting her see me hang out with other girls, not always calling her, letting her be the first to speak to me at the MSN, etc.
Now, about a week ago, she started talking about her BF, saying he's very different from her, he seems to have no ambition, etc.
EXTRA INFORMATION: Her boyfriend is the kind of guy that (even though he's good looking and loaded), says stuff like: "I Love you and I'd die if you ever left me", she even complained about it to a friend.
... Anyhow. She started getting all mushy on me, and eventually I said something along the lines of: "You know I want you guys to break up, but maybe you shouldn't, he'd probably kill himself, he's totally dependent on you."
And she replied: "Why would you want us to break up?"
And I, AFC on purpose (I've come to learn that with this girl I must say AFC things once in a while, she said even though I made her laugh like hell - with my C&F jokes and stuff - she wanted me to be more caring towards her, that it was one of the reasons she didn't want nothing serious with me), responded: "Because I miss you."
And she said: "I know it's wrong from me to say, but I miss you too."
Blah blah blah.
A few days later, she basically said she still felt something for me. And then, last friday, we ended up watching a movie together at a friend's house, I was sitting on the couch and she cuddled between my legs. I held her, sometimes she'd turn around to ask me some dumbass question about the movie.
That same night, at a dinner with our class, she kept hugging me, kissing my cheek, holding and cuddling, blah blah. Sat next to me even though I didn't ask her, or showed her I want to. And the most important thing.
Her BF was in the same diner (not with us though, he just hanged around another room, like a freaking unpaid waiter, waiting an hour and something for her, asshole).
Later still, at a bar, I was sitting, just hanging with friends, and she always came by to flirt or hug me. Her BF was sitting at a nearby table, alone, like the asshole he is.
She said she wanted to tell me something (I later came to realize she was thinking about breaking up with her boyfriend.) but she ended up not telling me anything.
THEN, yesterday. At the MSN, she said: "I've been thinking about you all day long, and it's beggining to scare me."
I said: "Why would it scare you?"
Her: "Stop playing dumb, you know why."
Me: "I know, but I want to hear it from you."
Her: "You won't."
Me: "I know. It doesn't matter. I know it."
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