Every once in awhile I hit a wall... I make great strides and learn a great any things and then I hit a wall and slip up.

I am currently pushing myself through a very intense and major transformation because I think a lot of my fundamental though processes and habits are wrong and detrimental so I have started pretty much from the ground up. That's partially why I am always in and out of this forums. Pickup for me, has always just been a smaller portion of the larger picture. That and I am just lazy.

But I get frustrated because sometimes I think I am too cerebral for my own good. Because I know all the answer intellectually, but it becomes so difficult to implement them in a manner that makes me satisfied with my progress. I am writing here because I find myself at a wall that I can't pass and I just need something to bounce my frustrations off of.

I think i am just too much of a perfectionist.

I know I should eat healthier
i know I need to work out everyday
I know I should stop cussing
I know I should work harder on my personal projects
I know I should work harder at work.
I know I should I should spend more time reading
I know I need to stop smoking pot everday
I know I should spend more time reading
I should draw once a day
I should work on my music
I should take my camera out and snap photos
I should be going out and meeting more people
I should really be doing more approaches during the week (though pickup is the least of my issues).

I know that all my anxieties are made within my brain as a result of past experiences, and that my past doesn't define who I am.
I know that the things that happen in my life are my responsibility, even if I don't think they are.
I know that I am not perfect, and I know that I shouldn't be so hard on myself.

But I fuck up time and time again. I make excuses for not going out. I don't do take care of responsibilities, I smoke WAAAAAY too much, I haven't even retouched photos I took from 3 months ago. I have been working on a client website for a year and it's not done (not all my fault but no excuses). I watch too much youtube. I cuss like a motherfucking sailor. and everytime I make good progress in the gym and lose weight, I mess it up by binge eating at night.

And here is the thing. I know how to fix all of this. I really do...intellectually, I know the exact step I need to take in order to fix this and in order to really make changes in my life for the better but I simply don't do it. Or I do it, then fuck it up, and make an excuse for why it wasn't going to work anyway.

And if I am not perfect about it I say fuck it and stop doing it all together.

I half assed my whole life. From high school till now. I dropped out of ever college I went to. Half assed every job I have ever had plus this one. Half assed all my artistic projects. Half assed everything. And here is the sick thing. I am not doing to bad for myself, despite my half assing everything. I have a decent management job making more money than my parents ever made. I have a car, an apt I can afford on my own and I am only 26. I am living a life that most of my friends have not achieved yet. But I know myself and I know I can do better and I am unhappy about it

I am just fed up with it. I want to fix this. But I don't know how. And my friends and family are tired of hearing this because they all pretty much know that I have the tools but don't do anything about it... So I am coming to you guys... I really want to make this transformation.

Anyone else feel this way? How did you overcome it? Any input is greatly appreciated.

Thanks for your time.

I came on here to see if I could help you with your wall but I cant think of anything. If you do ever find the answer let me know because I'm exactly the same! I didnt drop out of college because I'v got a dream, but I've never done a piece of work towards it to the best of my ability despite my dream. Not even the ones I've got firsts in! Just human nature I guess.

Well,

I was never this messed up, but when something I learned from body building (and i believe it's covered in venusian arts) is to create an avatar for yourself. Basically, an alter ego that has everything covered. He is confident, he eats healthy, he exercises, he finishes work early, he games every night etc... and everytime you think you can't do something just realize that this avatar can do it. Eventually you'll become that person imo.

Thats an NLP thing right?!?!
It might actually work. I did an exercise where I imagined my perfect woman so she would come into my life and my style slowly transformed so I attract that type of girl. Its kind of making your subconcious make very pragmatic decissions rather than trying to make it in your concious waying up pros and cons, and essentially hesitating.

"should" is your worst enemy. Get rid of it.


Alot of people underestimate of what they're capable of. It's a natural process of our brain to get us into that lazy state when we're attempting i.e. a math test when we don't want to.
But you need to put yourself over that barrier. And the only way to do that is by doing the things you need to do, along the way you'll get used to it.

male response: fuck it, I'll do that or chop my balls off.
female response: Omg, that's so much effort. I don't think I can do that.

Chef man, I completely understand you. I hope you'll get motivated and start giving the world the best that Chef can offer. You owe it to yourself. I am with you on this. I am just like you.

This link helped me understand the issue a little bit better. Hope it does the same to you man. Keep in mind that you're asking for advice, so you just took the first step. Step two is 60 cm away.

Keep in touch,

http://www.stevepavlina.com/articles/ov ... nation.htm

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Thanks guys for all your advice. I really appreciate it.

File,

I been reading that Steve Pavlina guy for a while, I like his stuff. I need to read this article though, never seen it.

And I do need to start getting rid of the word should from my vocab.

the Avatar thing has always been really hard for me and maybe I am just not that in tune, but the NLP generally goes way over my head for it to be helpful, but I will check it out.

I'll you guys updated more often on my progress when I can. I just really want to change things around. I really think that working on yourself at this level will help me get better with everything because then maybe I'll aactually have something to pat myself on the back for, you know.

Thanks again you guys.