| So this is part of my essay I wrote for the Stylelife competition they are having now and I realise I was pretty honest here.
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I read 'The Game' about 3 years ago, didn't think about it until 2 years ago and seriously started again after a year.
I feel my looks have improved, I no longer wear crummy T-shirts 2 sizes too big for me, I went to a few hairstylists and paid more than I was used to, still don't like my hair but at least it's better than what I had, I wear contacts and tighter jeans. My body language has improved and I can easily talk to people and normal girls now.
However, I still have many moments of self-doubt, I haven't been doing as many approaches as I'd like, I replace AA with self-denial. I still suck at conversations, I realise that I keep talking about work, jobs, school with everyone I meet, I have no idea how to transition into personal or fun topics. I also cannot escalate or kino at all. To face my fears, I took jobs in sales and later even insurance. I had to meet people all the time who could be rude and who had a reason not to like me, I got better at talking to people, but my self esteem was still low. I don't dare to ask people to commit or to go to the next level and I think I deliberately manipulate the conversation to be as superficial as can be, once I sense something deeper, my instinct is to pack up and run.
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not to turn off the newbies or whatever, but I had personal reasons for improving so slowly, but now I'm out of my slump, after June it will be a new start for me, I'll have more time to improve my dating life. Me next year will definitely be somewhere I want to be.
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