| Ok guys, here is as brief of a synopsis as possible.
I started this job 1 year ago. We started working on the same team maybe 2 months in. She is a solid 8, one of the 2 or 3 best looking girls at this company of maybe 80 people and maybe the most attractive, depending on your preference.
Anyway we have been flirting for quite sometime, but she flirts with all kinds of guys there. I know she was attracted to me at some point but she and I are both hyper people and working around her so much we goof off (she instigates alot of it) but I get carried away and take it too far. Like behavior we did when we were 5 and you tease and horseplay with girls you like. I feel like I am not like this with women I encounter in field but since I am around her so much I can't help myself. Like I tease her way too much the other day i told her that her hair looked green, made fun of her for wearing purple pants, gray shoes, and black and white top, also told her her clothes were wrinkled. Like obviously I don't care she's an attractive girl regardless but I guess I am kind of an asshole like that I can't help making fun of people sometimes, not just her.
I never asked her for her number one day she sent it to me in an email and told me to call her because I was pissed off about some drama at work. And this is like her main thing she loves to bitch about mgmt, etc. So anyway we text I'll text her shit like "you look cute today" or a picture of my dogs or whatever which I feel was a mistake I showed too much interest via text I should've been doing it physically. Anyway I kinda backed off on that. She calls me sometimes when she's pissed about work and vents to me, but sometimes I vent to her too or jobs has a bunch of BS politics that's why I am working on my product and want to start my own business. Most of the time she texts me complaints about work. For the first time maybe 1.5-2 weeks ago she sent an unsolicited text one night, asking some banal shit about plants, but I feel like she just wanted to talk to me.
Also she asked me to help her move one day. I agreed to do it. Showed up she had a couple other people to help, no other dude she was interested in, in fact I have never heard her mention any guy she was actually dating. She'll occasionally remark that she thinks some guy at work is hot but it's always someone who is married. Back to the move, she was being a total bitch. She yelled at me about using tape, then she refused to take the time to buy everyone lunch because she insisted she had to be at the new house by 1pm to meet some workers. I'm like bitch you drive ahead and meet them and give us money to go get lunch and we show up with the truck we loaded. Anyway I'm like whatever I am going to get something to eat then I met them at the new house, she notices that some stuff got messed up scratched etc and has a total fucking meltdown cries and blames everyone. Finally calms down but doesn't really apologize by that time I'm like fuck this I am leaving. Supposedly she buys beer and pizza after this but that was like 5 or 6pm and I'm like what kind of person expects people to go from 10am-5pm without eating and they're helping you move for free and then you also yell at them?
Fast forward a couple months, and as an example, the other day I'm sitting at my desk she comes up behind me and rubs the outside of my ear while I'm on the phone. I turn around and pretend to lunge at her she squeals and runs off. Later we are horse-playing I am sitting down and I grab her waist she's facing away and I lightly pulled her towards me, I did not pull her into my lap I kind of just guided her and she sits right down in my lap. She stays for a cpl seconds then jumps up and yells at me that there are other people there.
I can't lie even though she has shown herself to be a selfish bitch I keep wanting to give her the benefit of the doubt and I am really attracted to her. I think it's just because I am around her so much and I am lazy about going out and pursuing other women, I haven't even spent any time on Tinder and setting up dates lately which is easy anyway. I spend way too much time thinking about her, and sometimes if she's acting like a bitch it puts me in a shitty mood and I am pissed off driving home and even though I try to live in the moment and forget I end up being fired up for at least the first couple hours after getting home.
Then the next day (yesterday Friday 2/05) same thing we are horse-playing but I am feeling aggressive, I grab her wrists, she loudly yells at me not to grab her, then acts like a bitch the rest of the day and I am pissed off.
I did ask her to meet me like during the weekend like about 3 weeks ago-via text-she made up some bullshit excuse. I haven't text her at all since then except to respond to hers. I was planning to ask her in person to do something, use the 60 yrs challenge method ask her directly face to face and don't bail her out. But I was pissed at her Friday so I didn't.
So here's the crux. She is exactly what I am looking for looks wise. Maybe not some model but she is damn cute and she's the right size for me (I am not a big guy-she is petite but with good curves). From a purely physical perspective I could see myself with her and I am picky. I keep wanting to tell myself that the only reason she is bitchy is because of my admittedly rude behavior towards her. And I cannot get her out of my head it's Saturday about noon and since leaving work yesterday I have thought about her at least a 5 or 6 times an hour probably since then. I want her but there are so many signs pointing to it being a huge mistake and I know she is at least somewhat attracted to me but I am not sure where the level is at and I do feel that I have probably decreased the level of attraction with some AFC behavior like the horseplay and texting dog pictures etc. Not to mention we work together and I'll still really need this job.
So go ahead y'all, someone tell me this is a total waste of time and she doesn't matter, tell me I need to go out and become really good with women and not get tied up in some BS with her and be in the same boat when we break up in 2 years, tell me she isn't interested, etc. Whatever it is any opinions are welcome-thanks in advance!
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