Some of you might remember me from my other thread where i basically wanted to give up and believe me i wanted to, but I've been making what i feel is a decent amount of progress.

I still have trouble transitioning from the approach and introduction portion of a first encounter, but I've learned to use the canned routines like The Cube and i'm beginning to see a big difference.

The problem I've really truly had is closing, especially kiss closing. I can hold hands, brush against her arms playfully, play with hair no issue. I seem to get stuck right as i get into even closer proximity. I look into her eyes and i have a voice screaming in my head "Kiss her you moron! She's asking to be kissed!" and i never did. And i felt my heart ripped out after i ever so delicately walked a fine line this entire encounter, predominantly because I'm still not great at it, only to watch her interest dry up like a desert as soon as i puss out. I stumble over my words, I look away like a submissive dog, i feel my heart beating out of my chest and i watch her slowly retract. It's frustrating and so counter productive. I don't know what feeling is worse, not having the courage to approach, or going through everything so well only to watch it die all because of my inability to just go for it.

I approached so many women over the passed couple of months and genuinely make every effort not to give up but the constant rejection was actually weighing on me. I decided to clear my mind and try other hobbies, which is how i met up with a friend and went to a free yoga/meditation class. He knows that i went through a bad break up and has been there for me so he decided to bring me along to give it a try.

As i sat in the class, in came this beautiful, fit, energetic woman. I was floored by how in shape and seemingly beautiful she was. No make up, hair up, but holy shit those yoga pants. We went through the whole class and ended with some meditation. After class my friend introduced me to her and told her what i've been through. She decided to take an extra half hour to meditate with me and to conclude it, she tried something on me. She told me "We often transfer our energy and can learn to balance by seeing with our third eye's. It's why lovers and those close into a spiritual community touch foreheads. We learn to balance each other and breathe." She closed her eyes and leaned in, I was nervous at first but then i closed my eyes, and suddenly I didn't fear anything. I leaned in my part of the way and we touched foreheads and breathed. My nose touched hers by accident and i moved it back a smidge but she pushed forward again and touched my nose. She said "Don't resist what our natural posture is dictating, the transfer is to be natural" and at the moment I wasn't afraid.

A few day's later, i opened a girl that i ended up later realizing i knew her in some obscure way on campus. Ran through the whole thing, approach, instant date, cube (so helpful to gain comfort and not brag or babble on), told her to show me this building on campus I've never seen, sat outside and then came the moment. She was staring at me with the biggest puppy eyes ever. Beautiful stone blue eyes. I had my fingers locked with hers as we faced each other. Suddenly, I started getting nervous because I knew that this was when i need to make a move and in the past, this is where i bail. I then remembered my meditation, and on the fly i thought "she can't really reject you if you frame it like a game, right?" So I said to her

"Hey, have you ever heard of third eye energy transfers?"

"Haha, no. What is that?" She was a bit perplexed and i thought i was going to possibly see her interest fade but it didn't

"In some forms of meditation, it is believed that touching third eyes can transfer multiple feelings and can balance two people into the same mental and spiritual state. Wanna try?"

"Sure!"

I closed my eyes and she closed hers and we touched foreheads. Again, my nose instinctually touched hers (I don't have a big nose, btw) I wiggled my back and fourth gently and she did too. Then i pulled back a bit, maybe an inch and opened my eyes slightly. She was there, lips slightly puckered but not really and eyes closed but slowly opening. AT this moment, I wasn't afraid! I felt like the man! Without even thinking, I pulled her chin up to mine and kissed her. No tongue, but locked lips once or twice.

I opened my eyes slowly and smiled and so did she. We walked back to the student center and i needed to get going because I had a class. We exchanged numbers and made plans to hang out again. We kissed again, and i walked away to class.

I tried it again on another girl three days ago and it worked. I knew this girl from before so working up to that wasn't so tough, plus she just broke up with her boyfriend two weeks ago and we had a few drinks.

I did it again to see if 3rd time is a charm with another girl and it worked...sorta. Our lips grazed each other and she pulled back, Shaking her head, eyes closed and said "I'm sorry. I have a boyfriend. I didn't tell you and I feel dumb. I'm really sorry"

So maybe this is my thing? I'm not really sure why i don't feel nervous like this, but if i try to set up a kiss normally, i get too nervous and puss out. If i frame it like a game, the worst she can do is blame the game and not solely me?