| Hey, thank you so much in advise for people here that helped me so much.
So my problem is that I am stuck in a plateau of identity crisis. Sometimes I feel like I'm super cool, but sometimes I feel a little bit awkward. Overall, I think my game is still better than most people, but not as good as the natural. And I feel like my first impression is always very strong and attractive, but I can't persist that charisma when I have to spend time with someone all the time (work in a project) for a long time like months. This makes me second guess myself whether im cool or im a chode because people dont find me as attractive once they know me better.
Background: In HS, I have a lot of guy friends, but no game, and not the guy who girls will talk about. I think I was average. I was known to be best guitar player and also a very good student, but thats it. I had one long relationship with a top 5 girl of my class, but my social life was gone during that time. This is where i think my awkwardness comes from. After hs, we broke up, I lost many best friends, family probs, and i moved abroad to college. I was super depressed. I am much better and happy now. But once in a while the I have negative feeling about me being needy weird and not being accepted by people.
Now: I'm in top college, studying medical. I think of myself as naturally introvert, but i know game and can be very social, people think im fun. I have pretty good looks and height as im a model in asia. I play guitar very well and pretty muscular. my family is wealthy. (sry not trying to show off but trying to make a point). So for this reason I am pretty confident sometimes.
The problem is that I don't deal with amog well. My first impression is always good, everyone always accept and perceive me wel. However, when the amog (party hosters, richass kids) know me better, I started to lose my value in their eyes. I'm assuming because they can start to smell my inconsistence that im actually an introvert who doesnt do drug and spend money like they do.
So does anyone has any suggestion for me to get over this crappy mindset and just be cool? I know RSD should have a lot of this, I listen to blueprint, but still find it hard to be natural. Is there any RSD guide for social game? all the hot girls are in my social group (the society is not so big in asia, everyone knows each other, so its not so safe to cold approach). however, all these hot girls mostly end up with club owners, party hosters even tho they are ugly and dont do shit in life (sounds like the fat CEO as julien said haha).
Lastly, I do very well once I have a 1-1 talk with the girl. I know excatly how to get a lay. But my weakness is gaming in a social gathering. I can't do group control like i wanted to. So anyone with group theory pls help. Thank so much again, sry for very long post.
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