| I started college about a month ago, the first two weeks or so, I was feeling like a king, I was confident, I was spending a lot of time with girls. I hooked up with one. After that, I had a rush of confidence, but then, I have been slowly regressing back to a chode state, to where I am now.
I don't feel confident anymore.
I don't carry myself in a masculine manner as much as I once did.
I'm not taking any initiative.
I don't know what's going on, I'm honestly becoming depressed, I feel almost like I felt 2 years ago, before I knew of any sort of self-actualization; like everything about me is just null.
I went out last night with my friends, and a few girls, I came home even more bummed out, what I thought would be amazing and great fun ended up being just average.
Ever since I started using game, I've been pretty happy, but my happiness was being derived from female attention. I haven't fucked, or even kissed a girl in 3weeks. I'm at a low, I'm scared of taking initiative with girls once again, to the point where I won't even say what I want to say sometimes. My body language has even changed slightly, I used to have very strong alpha body language, but now it's dying down. I don't know what's going on, I've been wishing I had a girlfriend for awhile now, I've never had one. PUA and Game made me believe that girlfriends are not needed, that they are worthless, but at this point I have realized it's what I've been kind of craving.
What to do? Any advice?
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