Hello everyone. I'm new to these forums but this seems like a good place where I can get help with my problems with woman. This will be a long read, so if you don't want to read it then don't comment. I'm looking for some serious replies. Many thanks to those who read this.

Let me start with my backround information since I'm new here.I just turned 17 in December. I was fat shy kid growing up and never had many freinds. I was always scared to talk to girls. Then I hit puberty, lost some weight, and gained a little confidence. One night I happened to be drinking, which is the only time I have ever had success talking to girls, and I met a girl and got her number. She ended up becoming my first G/F and we dated for a year. We took eachothers virginity and fell in love with her. The problem was I didn't love myself and I showed alot of insecurity and jealousy towards her. She dumped me last May. I was heartbroken and suicidal. I was depressed all summer and didn't even want another girl. I got heavy into drugs and got into some trouble.

That made me take a look at what I was doing with my life. I realised that she was not coming back and I need to move on with my life. I got a job, started working out, and met alot of new people. I tried to get involved with other girls but I didn't have much success. I dated a girl for a week and she dumped me because she wanted to be just freinds. I played alot of truth or dare at random parties and made out with alot of girls. I had girls in right in my lap but I didn't know what to do because of my lack of experience. Sadly, the only sort of sexual action I've gotten since my ex was fingering a fat girl.

I'm sick and tired of having no success with girls, and I want to turn my life around. I know the main thing I need is confidence. I have a good amount of confidence in my looks, so that's not a problem. But as far as confidence in social skills, that's my downfall. I have faced way more rejection than success with woman, and I was very shy growing up, so I feel I'm a few steps behind everyone socially.

Now that you know about me as a person, let me get into my current situation. I'm not going to get a better chance to turn things around than right now so I don't want to mess things up. I know I have alot to learn, but this is where I need as much advice as I can get. It certainly won't hurt, that's for sure.

I have been freinds with this girl since summer. I actually met her because she came up to me out of nowhere and said "hey, your sexy what's your name". She would text me all the time, try to hang out with me everyday, and showed tons of interest. She made it clear that she liked me alot, but I had no idea what to do.

So we stopped talking fo a while because she moved to her Dad's for a few months. When she came back she wanted to hang out with me. Well I hung out with her and her freinds for a few weekends and partied. I got smashed every night we hung out. For some reason, when I drink, social skills come naturally to me. I become alot more confident and funny, and I always know what to say. On top of that, I'm great at talking to girls. If I could be drunk all the time I would be a pimp.

Well long story short, I ended up making out with this girl every night we hung out, I even slept in bed with her one night. A few days later, her freind tells me that she really likes me. I was shocked, because this girl is a knockout, and I thought I would have no chance with her. So I asked her out, she said yes, and we have been dating for a month now.

This is where I need your help. After dating for a month, things are pretty awkward for us. We haven't talked on the phone once because there is never anything to talk about. We only talk on AIM. We usually only kiss when we meet eachother or one of us is leaving. And we never han out alone, always with freinds.

Last night her freinds left to go do something for a few minutes and it was just us two. My heart started racing, I started sweating, and my mind was racing trying to think of something to say. I couldn't think of anything else to talk about other than how awkward it is when we are alone because we are so used to being with freinds. I tried to keep it going but the awkward silence came again. So we just sat there in silence for a few minutes. Some of the worst minutes of my life.

I know if this is going to work out, we have to get used to being alone, I need to learn how to talk to her, and we need to build more physical chemistry. I have this gorgeous girl in the palm of my hands, and I don't want to miss out on this oppurtunity like I did so many other times. But if things don't change soon, I don't see why I won't get dumped.

The problem is, I don't know where to start. This is where your advice comes in. Any advice will be greatly appriciated. It could change my life.

And again I'm sorry about the length of this, but I wanted to go into detail so I could get the best advice. That is, if anyone actually reads this.