Hey Guys,

I have a Dilemma I cant figure out for myself.

Basicly its a question about

Focus on my strenghts vs. try to errade my biggest weakness

Let me explain shortly.

My biggest "triggerpoint" and weakness where i get most frustrated, upset, sad, depressed, anxious and weak is what I call "social skill". This is everything about how people like me, how Im acting in a group, how to influence a group, how to pick up girls (ive been in the PU Scene 4 a while) and all kind of soft skill topics.
My biggest Strenght is analyzing. I use to analyze everything from social dynamic, who I am, Strategygames, Pokerplayers, Stocksmarket. Whatever Im able to analyze I will be good at it. Im fortune to be able to say with my 26 years I made some good money by my biggest strenghts - in Pokergame - making a decend amount of money out there.

I guess Im more into beeing a Nerd on the PC. I still managed via PickUp and Selfdevelopment to have a reasonable soft skill trough years of training and focus on it.

I consider my soft skill as above average and I dont look like a nerd or you would necessary see me as a nerd. Still. It triggers me such a big amount and I spend soo much thinking time and energy on social skill and why Im not where I want to be, why Im not as great in terms of social dynamic and so on. Im simply putting a lot of energy on this topic without really beeing successfull (for what I consider as a success).

So now Im at a point where I tried to partly focus on my strengths and partly focussing on my weakness - and it doesnt work out. I neither get good at one or another thing.

So I want to make a life decission!

Either focus my life on my biggest disadvantage and biggest triggerpoint and try to make it to my advantage by studying Communication and Psychology and by this beeing quite happy because nothing really triggers me anymore while knowing it will be a long hazzle

or

focus on my strenghts, beeing a little Nerd, enjoy beeing in flow and do what Im good at and forget about social skill and social dynamic. Get a different focus and be happy with what I like while knowing that all social activites will trigger me and I will probably be less social active.

I hope you can help me get some views on this dilemma.

Thanks