There are three related inner game sticking points I have- uncertainty of the morality of what I want to do, then even when I am fine with it, still feeling guilt, which locks me up. On top of that, I absorbed a lot from here that was not my true self. I'm a believer now that we have to be our true selves, not our false selves. Of course I am torn when being my true self in a context might lose a girl, and being a false self will get her. In those cases I would ask, what would I regret more in the morning,.

What I want is freedom, and a beautiful wife

thank you