Now men, down to business. I believe I've been massively screwing up because I did the right things well, but in the wrong order. I mean too soon. There are probably stages. Women are unforgiving. There are priorities. Female logic is opposite male logic. What we intuitively know is right.. is wrong!! From the point of view of attraction anyway. This is only beginning to sink in. For example I learned on google that women are attracted to mystery when they don't know where they stand in a man's eyes as far as looks go- whether they are stunning or average. Now I thought telling a woman she was beautiful was good! Now they find it attractive when they don't know where they stand, when they don't know how good their "game" is with him? I can believe it because looking back, women who were really interested in me, I didn't let them know. I kept a poker face on this or more likely I just didn't consider them. They still talked to me for a long time. They wanted to be my friends. They invited me to their places and keep inviting me. Imagine if I told them they're beautiful. Then they'd really like me! Yeah right. How great it is when our logic and common sense fails us, and everything is reverse of what we'd expect. But I believe (still) they want to be told they're beautiful- just after lots of sex. Maybe they don't even want it then.

I pray that God will enlighten my mind and free me from errors and blindness. I've made a lot of blind effort. Imagine if that would have been enlightened effort! The right thing at the wrong time is the wrong thing in this game, I am sure. I would like to become immaculate, but my main aim is to get a nice wife and just become a real man. That will be enough to satisfy me. I don't want absolute power or to get all the sex I can.