| its been a very long time since i have posted on the forums but desparate times call for desparate measures lol...here it goes:
so i am 19 years old 2 years out of highschool and developed a love interest with the hottest girl i went to hs with over last summer. i figured out her initial attraction via intense ioi's over parties over the summer, and found it astonishing because i always thought she was out of my league. i would see her a few times and every time would would chat laugh and just chill, i even kissed her one of these nights. then one night we got into an amazing conversation at a party were i also talked to other girls and she showed some jealousy towards that. the next party i saw her at we tsalked amazingly again, and left the party to go get some food. on the way we continued talking and we vibed like ive never vibed with another girl. we got back to the house the party was at and she told me she wanted to leave becuase she thought people were back at her house ( college campus) and was totally down with me coming. we got there all the lights were off and no one was up. she mentioned that her friends were sleeping in her bed so we couldnt sleep there. at the time sex was never on my mind because i vibed so well with here, until she said that lol. well i thought if we couldnt have sex i didnt want to settle for less and left. it left on a verrry romantic note. next time i see her she mentioned getting coffee with someone and wanted me to come...i am not down for coffee with her and another dude, so i talked to her on facebook and got her number there and said lets get coffee, she replies ok. so i texted her twice that week, got no response. i see her at a party a few weeks later and she looks nervous. i said hi and walked away to go outside to smoke a cigarette. she insists to follow me out and compliment my shoes lol. we were outside just chatting and i pretyt much ignored her. she said sorry she was bad at texting and i just said hey thats a lie but i get it. anyway we talked spontaniously at the party but i decided i needed an answer so i brought her outside alone and she seemed a little weirded out lol i just said hey i only am this serious with people i want to get to know with intense eye contact and great tonality. she smiled and looked away a little flustered and was just like ohh you want to get to know meee?? and slowly walks inside. i said look hb10 if you walk away its done because i cant keep chasing, she replies dont be like that!! and just goes inside. so this bitch left me outside alone in the cold. i wasled insde and we talked for a little and it was fucked up, she seemed put off, i felt needy, it was just bad so i left with a buddy. next time i see her out we both activly ignored each other. i would talk to her girl friends and she would jump in, ignore, and pull them away ( something she used to do early on last summer). saw her two more times after that and same shit. it sucked. it just felt wrong not talking to her but i didnt because it was coming off in a place off neediness. so i see her again last weekend. we talked and laughed a little and i just said hey look can we talk, she says yes. i bring ehr outside again to get some clarity and she honestly repsponded how i thought she was. i say i cant play this ignoring game it sucks, she goes what game? gives me denial even though i am positive i know how she feels. i dont know why she would attempt to ignore me when im ignoring her, but is still down to talk to me when i ask. its just a weird situation developing into a one itis. im thinking of doin this. next time i see her act completely normal as if nothing ever really has happened, joke around, and just talk to other girls. everytime i have been with another girl and hb10 sees she gets the look ive recognized too many times of jealousy. please help me out
edit:also interesting to note the night after she walked away from me i deleted her on fbook, so the next time i saw her i knew that she had known i deleted her by the way she loked at me she gave me like a wtf look in her eyes. she even brought it up like yeah and i i was looking at a pictur eof min you coomeneted on and it said you deleted me as a friend? ps. you cant check that way that bitch typed my name in lol. i did it cus she we really didnt interact on fbook and why would i want a girl on there i texted twice and no reponse and walks away from me when i opened up just a little.
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