i was friend with this girl for over a year and i though she friend zoned me but while i was writing this topic i went through all my texts with the girl from day one and boy was i wrong i friend zoned myself because i didn't have bulls to talk to her. i asked her in one of my text if she was my girlfriend, it went like this:

me:are you my girlfriend
her:u mean female friend or a girlfriend?
me:i mean a girlfriend girlfriend not a female friend
her:and u? what do you think of me?
me:i don't know that's why I'm asking you I'm very confused
her:i cant say for sure because u didn't say anything about that to me but i can say for sure we are close.

that was last december we had a few text after that setting a date to talk the day after but i cant remember how it went but from the other texts few days after i believe i didn't do good because she was still giving me strong signals.

now unfortunately we haven't talked for over a month now i don't know why and last week i did the worst thing someone can do to a potential relationship.i was alone in a bar we used to frequent, and one of the workers there was starting his shift told me he saw my girl entering a near by club, i immediately went after her drunk as fuck, bought a drink then walk up to her and said hi and i asked her how is she then walked to the other side of the club a minute later she came to me and asked me what i was doing there, i said someone told me she was there, then she asked me why i don't text her anymore ( i still don't know why we stopped texting) then i started mumbling stuff because of all the alcohol then she told me she was going home. I'm very sure i made her very unconformable that's why she left in a hurry. the next day she called me like 20 times i didn't answer her because i didn't know what to say.

i know i was acting like a bitch for over a year and what i did in the club might have ruined my chance of getting her back but right now i want her more than ever,and I'm planning on talking to her next sunday. my best plan is just to be honest with her i will text her to ask her to go out with me to talk then i will talk to her about how we lost contact and ask her to be my girlfriend. i know she loves me even after the stupid move i did in the club.

now you can say shit about me for being a bitch,laugh about my stupid story,give me your advice or correct my grammar( english is not my first language). the space is very much open for anything. i just want to say that i feel much better after writing this