whenever i see a girl that i am attracted to , my heart races and i cant even keep eye contact for long etc,

there was this girl in the university shop who was serving and i went to her till to buy my stuff, but because of my anxiety i did not want to go to her till(cash register for all u americans)

Now i went to her tills and i didnt speak fast or anything but i couldnt keep looking at her in the eye/ talk to her and make her laugh like i do with girls i am not that attracted to

how the heck do i solve this because this hands down is the worst problem in my life

i felt suicidal for exactly this reason, and nearly killed myself for this reason

should i go out looking for other girls im attracted to, and no matter where they are ie on the street, say hi to them?

You need to experience the exposure effect — surround yourself with gorgeous women. The gym, cubs, coffee shops, etc... but the more you become used to seeing a lot of pretty girls, the less appearances will effect you.

but the ones im attracted to alot are the ones that rarely are visible, i maybe only see them once or twice a week

i think i will see her again but im probably certain that i will feel the same way, what do i do?

if i go up to her i feel like i will freeze, should i just say hi and ask for her number
even though it seems creepy because i havent smalled talked her yet


ALSO

there was also another one at the library but i sat next to her and said "is my bag getting in your way" after being scared and nervous around her for 30 mins + . She didnt even hear it but the sad thing was i could definatley see that she was waiting for me to talk to her because she looked at me as well, but when she looked at me i couldnt look into her eyes. And lol she wasnt really doing anything on her computer and pretend reading/writing in her diary because i guess she was waiting for me to talk to her?

god i feel like im gonna make no progress whatsoever, how the hell do i fight this when my brain and amygdilla is destroying me ...

i dont think i can be cured because ive tried everytime and nothing seems to work

am i out of luck?

That's all the more reason to go talk to them. Would you rather maybe (probably not) get turned down or not have tired at all? Just say something. Be super indirect if you're too shy. Ask for the time. Something.

my heart races and i can actually feel it pumping like nothing else
i feel frozen and cant do anything

its pretty sad that the ones im attracted to , be they HB6(ie bit chubby etc) i still cant talk to them

while the HB9 and 10s that im not that attracted to i can speak to as my fear and my heart does not race around them

this has also caused me MASSIVE mental issues as the prettiest girl i ever saw was interested in me( ie would look at me when i walked by and would turn her head when i walked past) but i didnt sayy anything to her the whole year because i was scared around her.

i have so much regret and i wouldnt even have cared if she rejected me, the only problem that i had was that i did not talk to her in the first place. this has been bugging me for the past 2 years, i dunno how i can ever make this go away?

This. The more exposure you have around hot girls the less it effects you, and in turn the less you value their looks.

When you are out and about make small talk with anyone you can. If its a 80 year old lady great. It doesn't matter who you talk to. The more you do it the better. Heck if you want start saying hi to anyone that walks pass you or even smile at them. The whole point of this is to get you talking to strangers and get over your social anxiety. The more you do it the more comfortable you be in talking to people and that girls you are interested in.

1: Talk to people
2: Build confidence
3: ???
4: Profit.

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