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Hy. I want to date older girl HB9(20-22) and I am just 18... I really am a little bit afraid because she is more experienced, but I didn't have many girls(few).. By physical preferences I am 190 cm(99kg), she is cca. 175 without heels(not fat.. not skiny)... To go .. or not to go... I live in not such big society and that is my problem... If I do something stupid... My friends will get that info 100%..:/
The answer already lies in your post. You already stated that you want to date her, suggesting you are attracted to her. I don't see how physical preferences has anything to do with this unless you care a great deal about how others will perceive this relationship?
This decision should not be affected by me or any other member of this forum. It lies with you. If you want to date this girl, date her. The number of girls you have been with is irrelevant. I remember the time I was a virgin (not so long ago) and was nervous as fuck for my first sexual expereince. Truth be told I had to battle my own insecurities. After sex, I told her this was my first time and she was shocked. She had no idea nor did I tell her and give any indication beforehand.
The main point I'm making is, if you like this girl then past expereinces or your phyical appearance shouldn't stand in the way. Nor should what the your community would think of you. It's a small town yes, however all that has happened is you showed interest in a older girl and she said no. It's normal. You were attracted to her and you persued. If anything it shows you are confident to pursue the things you want. It's admirable.