I'm 20. Come from a strict middle-eastern family in pennsylvania, but being raised in such a family made me the opposite and more lenient and open to all cultures. but i still keep certain morals in pocket.

I've been with 6-7 women in my life with an opportunity to f-close. like, bucket naked in bed (i don't count it tho). But I've never put it in, I just bust with the girl and semi-return the favor ('cept no eating that seafood!).

is this weird? i'm a virgin. i've chosen as such. i'm actually still intimidated by sex. i think it's because of morals, fear of pregnancy and kids, being laughably short in bed, and other pussy shit. (and everytime i've been near pussy, i feel like it has such a a rancid smell. like rotting milk crossed with dead tuna and horse radish. ugh.)

i feel like i only want to lose it by a girl in a relationship with a girl i get reaaally close to. but i want to be a PUA, and I can't be doing that by being with all these girls and NOT f-closing right?

should i just say f-it and go for the close to get it gone, or master the game, and then close when I say it's time?