Been in and out of the material over the last year while I worked at sea. I spent so much time on inner shit I feel stifled. Not only do I have anxiety from being on the ocean for long periods of time but I have lost my drive to get girls.

Sometimes I would come back from a trip at sea and kill it in the bar. Now after my last trip to sea I feel completely introverted. I refuse to numb my senses as my co workers do with excessive drugs and drink. Sure that would help but only temp to the issue at hand.

Too much time at sea has left me socially awkward. I get by fine but can’t banter like I used to. I cant “glow” for the life of me. And If I do get close its only faking. Like I’m not having fun. I need to get out of my head. This is easier said then done. Anyone have advice with experience in being away from society?