Hi all i have some questions (sorry for my bad english)

Im Mert 23 years old

I found pick up things 2 years ago.Before that i had a average lifestyle
I decided to build an attractive lifestyle and turn to good from bad

First i have thought i suck at talking to girls

After a year i realised that i have no problems with talking to girls,approaching etc..

Then i found i have low self esteem near other men

Always i challenge myself with other men around me.Also i become nervous with my same gender

I always feel anxious from thinking if someone gears me or tries to push me.

I also think of what to do if someone tries to pick a fight with me?

Im a talkative smart person i think.I never stuck on finding interesting conversation and im social but im not an alpha.

I can impress girls and attract them by myself or with my good friends but when im with other people or men i feel like im a beta and could not do my best

Anyway...

I want to build a good life but i dont want to be a pushover guy or funny guy with my friends

When im with people i talk too much or be nice to people and become everyones friends

So i want to get over it

Any advices?

you already recognized your problem. you don't need advice.

but this might help. picture this:

you feel awesome, healthy and revitalized as first notice a HB9 near you. she is looking down at something. you follow her gaze and then see your physical body lying below you on silk, with eyes closed and a faint hint of a smile. you realize that it's not your bedroom. but that doesn't matter, as in a few moments you will be moved out of that room in a wood coffin and the HB9 will be on her way; headed for home.