So, I've been in The Game for a year now, and just recently I started to freely express myself (i.e. I like to paint my nails black and to wear a tie on shirt, and to wear bracelets with spikes, necklaces with runes on them etc.)


I like to wear that, but my society doesn't like watching me in that. They look at me as this weirdo teenager that still hasn't found his style.

Whenever thay atttack me with questions: "OMG, you paint your nails black! Why?" , or "Why do you wear that?!" I mostly ignore them and then later I explaine to them that I don't like boring people who constantly live in their "Pleasure bubble" and are afraid to step out of their comfort zone.


I am also still learning gaming so I throw some stuff in my social circle (mostly the cold reads) so they see me as this weird-looking-budist-guy.

For the last year I have been on emotional rollercoaster , and I don't know if I can handle it anymore.

Sometimes I just want to go home, cry, turn the Star Trek on and never go out again. It's pretty cold-hearted out there.
The worst thing is that besides gaming my social circle, I haven't been sarging.

I have never been sarging since I started learning The Game, because I thought that strong indentity would improve my chances. And now, it's driving me to insanity...


Guys, what should I do? Does anyone have any similair indentity problems?

You can't say you're in the game when you're not gaming. Offcourse people in your social circle will look weird at you when you turn into somebody totally new. Go out and start gaming people you don't know.
It makes no sense btw to be cold reading people you know. Cold reading helps building comfort with the new acquintance you've made.

It's time for you to go the distance and start chatting up random people.